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I'm so sad today. Sometimes I would like to just be carefree and have fun but I'm not and I can't. I don't know why, i'm not stressed...i'm just upset. in general. This weather sucks, i know it will be over soon but i can't wait much longer. My sickness is still making me lazy and useless. In one week and 4 days I'll be home for summer...but I don't know what I'll do all summer. I need a job. I need a love. I need...something. Im missing a vital part of my existence but i can't figure out exactly what that is. I hate my roommate too much. I look into my dreams too much. I can't cry anymore, that's weird. I haven't in so long and i'm really sad now, listening to sad music, and it won't come. I haven't smoked a cigarette in a week, mostly because I've been sick but partly because I feel like AG won't like a girl who smokes. And I want him to like me more than anything.
ps. I smoke pot. and I think 420 is pretty stupid. am I alone here?
ps. I smoke pot. and I think 420 is pretty stupid. am I alone here?