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Another crazy night with the crew. Went to Montgomery to watch Kristi Lee play...kat, I have been trying to get you to listen to her for forever!!! Glad that you finally made it. So, the night fucking rocked. We were all on pins and needles for a while b/c Carmichael definitely lost her ID, but E-Lane came to the rescue...Baby carm was 21. Anyway, last night was, for the most part, drama free which was a great change for the better. I can't wait to move...I am expecting to get atleast one month of drama-free time. Sorry about the knot on your head Des...hehe.
So, Kat and Kristi sound goddamned phenomenal together. I think that everyone in that bar would agree to that. And, better yet, Kat has a show...one more reason to go see my Nicki. On that note, I will definitely admit that it did hit me a little harder than I thought it would to see her last night. Goddamn did I fuck up or what? HOLY SHIT!!! And, what were you following Mel? I have no clue. Good heart, good soul, good body, character, honest, loyal, and truly loved me...as i beat the fuck out of myself, I wonder what in the hell i was thinking. Go figure I would fuck some shit up with someone that i communicated well with and looked good with and was soooo overly compatible with. Guess we all make mistakes, but wow, wish that i hadn't made one quite this big.
Emily, I am in a room full of ass...haha hehe.
So, on the way home, Desi and I talked about the things that we will remember certain girls for...that got a little interesting. Yeah, 911. It was a good session of reminiscing though; good to look at things that hurt at this wonderful critical distance.
So, I am trying to stay away. I want out of the loop and out of the drama and out of the lives of the people that cause me pain. I want to leave and not exist to those people. No more pain....actually, those words bring me back to last summer...the Missy Elliot song...that's how it needs to be. All hanging out and drinking and listening to music and not having a care in the world.
So, I am sooo excited about moving. I can't even explain the pleasure that this whole thing brings to me. I want so much that I can't find here. It was so amazing last night to be in a place where I only knew a handful of people and only those people knew me. I didn't have to worry about who was watching me or who gave a shit what I did. Lovely!!!
Well, I think that it's about that time for me to quit writing. At mom's work and people are watching me...and I gotta call these peeps from Baltimore back (long distance on the work phone) for job interviews and shit.
Peace out.
So, Kat and Kristi sound goddamned phenomenal together. I think that everyone in that bar would agree to that. And, better yet, Kat has a show...one more reason to go see my Nicki. On that note, I will definitely admit that it did hit me a little harder than I thought it would to see her last night. Goddamn did I fuck up or what? HOLY SHIT!!! And, what were you following Mel? I have no clue. Good heart, good soul, good body, character, honest, loyal, and truly loved me...as i beat the fuck out of myself, I wonder what in the hell i was thinking. Go figure I would fuck some shit up with someone that i communicated well with and looked good with and was soooo overly compatible with. Guess we all make mistakes, but wow, wish that i hadn't made one quite this big.
Emily, I am in a room full of ass...haha hehe.
So, on the way home, Desi and I talked about the things that we will remember certain girls for...that got a little interesting. Yeah, 911. It was a good session of reminiscing though; good to look at things that hurt at this wonderful critical distance.
So, I am trying to stay away. I want out of the loop and out of the drama and out of the lives of the people that cause me pain. I want to leave and not exist to those people. No more pain....actually, those words bring me back to last summer...the Missy Elliot song...that's how it needs to be. All hanging out and drinking and listening to music and not having a care in the world.
So, I am sooo excited about moving. I can't even explain the pleasure that this whole thing brings to me. I want so much that I can't find here. It was so amazing last night to be in a place where I only knew a handful of people and only those people knew me. I didn't have to worry about who was watching me or who gave a shit what I did. Lovely!!!
Well, I think that it's about that time for me to quit writing. At mom's work and people are watching me...and I gotta call these peeps from Baltimore back (long distance on the work phone) for job interviews and shit.
Peace out.