At the 'Grands'
Well. I'm in campbellford visiting the grandparents and making bacon sandwiches...although, I am aware this is of no significance to anyone really, I just figured I might as well take advantage of the time to do some updating.
Nothing too new or exciting has been happening lately that could deserve an entry, but the times they are a changing! As they tend to do, always leaving me with the "what the fuck am I doing" thought. I mean, I could be entering my third year of university, or I could be finishing my 2 year program at a college, I could be fixing up a shit box car, or atleast doing some good. But I am not, haven't and probably won't be doing half of those things come september! And as depressing as that seems, just be glad you got me on a day of recovering from a fabulous night on the town! lol
This past week went by like a hammer to the nail, just a pounding glimpse of the return to my bullshit existance. And it's just sad to say that it was only 3 days, when I could have done anything other than sulk and watch like the whole 3rd season of Six Feet Under, and drink alone in my basement. But I did. Hell I enjoy a good lazing around vegging out session and fuck, I've been getting my much needed six feet fix! It just made me realize how much I need to be or have something outside of my friends.
Too bad I thought I used to have that...but for the past year, I've become way too reliant on my friends. And a part of me loves it, but I also think my mother was right when she said I've never really had a need for a b/f or even a broader circle of friends, because I put so much weight on the ones I have right now. It just seems that when it comes to relationships of any kind that everyone else is always better...although I'd like to think that that isn't true, but...
Wow, I would have thought that all that laughing lastnight would have calmed down my negativity....but maybe it's just reality.
Nothing too new or exciting has been happening lately that could deserve an entry, but the times they are a changing! As they tend to do, always leaving me with the "what the fuck am I doing" thought. I mean, I could be entering my third year of university, or I could be finishing my 2 year program at a college, I could be fixing up a shit box car, or atleast doing some good. But I am not, haven't and probably won't be doing half of those things come september! And as depressing as that seems, just be glad you got me on a day of recovering from a fabulous night on the town! lol
This past week went by like a hammer to the nail, just a pounding glimpse of the return to my bullshit existance. And it's just sad to say that it was only 3 days, when I could have done anything other than sulk and watch like the whole 3rd season of Six Feet Under, and drink alone in my basement. But I did. Hell I enjoy a good lazing around vegging out session and fuck, I've been getting my much needed six feet fix! It just made me realize how much I need to be or have something outside of my friends.
Too bad I thought I used to have that...but for the past year, I've become way too reliant on my friends. And a part of me loves it, but I also think my mother was right when she said I've never really had a need for a b/f or even a broader circle of friends, because I put so much weight on the ones I have right now. It just seems that when it comes to relationships of any kind that everyone else is always better...although I'd like to think that that isn't true, but...
Wow, I would have thought that all that laughing lastnight would have calmed down my negativity....but maybe it's just reality.