Old enough to always feel this.
I did something horrible tonight and I feel horrible b/c of it. And I should feel horrible, I should feel nothing but horrible. There's absolutely no excuse for my behavior. I'm completely disgusted w/myself. I would love to just crawl out of my skin right now. I thought I was a better person than that but my actions tonight are valid proof that I'm not. I have no spine. I'm going to obsess over this and it serves me right. My chest is tight and sore and my heart truly aches for her.