What's happened to you? It's obvious you changed.
I seriously never sleep anymore. Well...I do, but it's always at a ridiculous hour. I don't know anything about insomnia but I feel so bad for the people who have it. I know Annie's dad has it. That must suck hardcore. I have no idea how he manages to work the hours he does. I just don't know how you can function.
I was looking through old journals earlier..I have some really disturbing stuff in them. Like when Jenny was turning into a coke head and hanging out w/coke heads..."I’ve seen enough young girls with runny noses and dialated pupils to make me want to pull them by their ratty hair and smash their faces against the glass they’ve just snorted clean." And when I really hated myself..."I’m tired of looking into a reflection I’ve grown to loathe. A young woman made up of disgust, filth, and failure. There’s not much of anything left inside me anymore...only the numbness of the emptiness and the absence of any hope, faith or pride. Not a shred of dignity remains..." And the sad thing is, not much has changed. My social life has obviously changed, and I really love the people I hang out with now, but the way I feel about myself and other people has basically stayed the same.
I just really need to get some sleep. I can't stop thinking about Jim. He treated me like a queen and I always just kind of pushed him away. It's fucked up the way things work out.
Life remembers everything you do
Your karma has caught up with you
I was looking through old journals earlier..I have some really disturbing stuff in them. Like when Jenny was turning into a coke head and hanging out w/coke heads..."I’ve seen enough young girls with runny noses and dialated pupils to make me want to pull them by their ratty hair and smash their faces against the glass they’ve just snorted clean." And when I really hated myself..."I’m tired of looking into a reflection I’ve grown to loathe. A young woman made up of disgust, filth, and failure. There’s not much of anything left inside me anymore...only the numbness of the emptiness and the absence of any hope, faith or pride. Not a shred of dignity remains..." And the sad thing is, not much has changed. My social life has obviously changed, and I really love the people I hang out with now, but the way I feel about myself and other people has basically stayed the same.
I just really need to get some sleep. I can't stop thinking about Jim. He treated me like a queen and I always just kind of pushed him away. It's fucked up the way things work out.
Life remembers everything you do
Your karma has caught up with you