In Which I Scream

[a_bornhorst]

I went to Brunswick's house yesturday and watched him and Jake play. Omg. Jake is so awesome playing his guitar. He sounded so good. They played Silhouettes by Smile Empty Soul. Wow I just wanted to hug him, but he wasn't feeling good. Why? I'll tell you why. He overdosed. ::Looks angry and about to throw up:: He probably doesn't even remember that I was there. He laid down on the alley for about a half an hour when Brunswick and I checked his pulse and it was like really, really, slow. Not normal at all. I gave him my water and he couldn't even swallow it. It was really, really bad. He just started playing it. He could barely talk and so Jordi, Brunswick and I picked him up and brought him into Brunswick's car so he could unwind. I asked Jordi what he was taking and she said, Stacker. It's a weight supplement or something like that and it slows you down. He was really bad. I was really scared. And then today I was watching racing (not something I enjoy doing) and they were talking to the Stacker car driver. It kept haunting me.

Then again if Jake does know he probably realizes that I know. He has too. I wonder if he worries that I will tell someone or that I will spread it around. I wonder if he is embarressed. Probably not. But let me tell you, it was really scary.

When I got back Shelley did a breath test on me to see if I was drinking which I wasn't. I wish she'd stop acting like my mom, because she's not. She is not my mom.

--Love, Alyssa--