Christmas is officially over
Took down our Christmas tree today. Well, technically it's still standing in the living room, but all the ornaments and lights are down and put away until next year. It's very sad, I think. I still think it was the prettiest little Christmas tree ever, and I wish I could have gotten a really nice picture of it.
I've spent the past two days helping my mom clean out my grandma's apartment at Augustana and her old condo. I'm really tired, and this weekend has been anything but relaxing, despite the fact that I stayed home from church today. I was at my parents' for a while yesterday and rounded up almost all of my jewellery to take home. Sorted through most of it and set aside the things I want to get rid of. There were a lot of things that I just don't wear, and couldn't see any reason to keep anymore. It was time to let go.
I am insanely frustrated with this internet service from Qwest. From what I can tell, it's not worth a quarter of what they're charging me, since the service cuts in and out and we're constantly resetting the modem. This is actually the first I've been able to get on all day, since it wasn't working at all before I left this afternoon with my mom. Really, really disappointed and frustrated.
My grandma's memorial service is Thursday. I'm getting nervous about the music I'm supposed to do. I hope I can get through it. I still haven't decided if it will be the last music I ever perform, or if I'm going to stay in choir and Joyful Noise. I've had some really good, really insightful and supportive music conversations this week with Dan and Sandy, and also with Andy, but when it all boils down, I still feel like I sound terrible, despite what it seems everyone else says to the contrary. And I don't know how to fix this issue, or how to make myself believe that I'm any good at this music thing. So... I don't know. I'm up in the air, leaning mostly toward staying, at least for the time being, because if it's one thing both Dan and Andy are right on, it's the fact that when I'm not part of a music program I really start to lose my grip and sink into depression. *sighs* We'll see....
I've spent the past two days helping my mom clean out my grandma's apartment at Augustana and her old condo. I'm really tired, and this weekend has been anything but relaxing, despite the fact that I stayed home from church today. I was at my parents' for a while yesterday and rounded up almost all of my jewellery to take home. Sorted through most of it and set aside the things I want to get rid of. There were a lot of things that I just don't wear, and couldn't see any reason to keep anymore. It was time to let go.
I am insanely frustrated with this internet service from Qwest. From what I can tell, it's not worth a quarter of what they're charging me, since the service cuts in and out and we're constantly resetting the modem. This is actually the first I've been able to get on all day, since it wasn't working at all before I left this afternoon with my mom. Really, really disappointed and frustrated.
My grandma's memorial service is Thursday. I'm getting nervous about the music I'm supposed to do. I hope I can get through it. I still haven't decided if it will be the last music I ever perform, or if I'm going to stay in choir and Joyful Noise. I've had some really good, really insightful and supportive music conversations this week with Dan and Sandy, and also with Andy, but when it all boils down, I still feel like I sound terrible, despite what it seems everyone else says to the contrary. And I don't know how to fix this issue, or how to make myself believe that I'm any good at this music thing. So... I don't know. I'm up in the air, leaning mostly toward staying, at least for the time being, because if it's one thing both Dan and Andy are right on, it's the fact that when I'm not part of a music program I really start to lose my grip and sink into depression. *sighs* We'll see....