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"friends are like chemicals; once they're mixed together, they have a reaction and are never the same again".
it's so much easier to have your life revolve around someone rather than something. people complain about it all the time; they complain about how being in love and having that feeling of needing to revolve your life around someone else's is so annoying. but when they're not in love anymore, that's all they're looking for. when you dont have anyone to revolve your life around, you begin to wonder what your life should revolve around. you start to question the purpose of your life. it is so important to feel like you are needed in someone else's life, that you are special, that you made a difference. i guess it's true when they say that the life becomes worth living the most when you have someone to life for.
when you care so much about someone, it's like you're in this bubble where nothing else matters but at the same time, you are so free and so open to the world that you see and learn things you've never thought of before.
2 years ago, i was able to tell each day apart. every day was different, and everyday was important. now, everything is so blurred and i wonder where the year has gone because nothing important particularly stands out in my mind. it's weird how i remember everything that happened 2 years ago so perfectly, but i cant remember what happened a week ago. it's almost like i made a wrong turn 2 years ago, and i know where that turn was. and it sucks because that turn was for the worst for me, but for the best for someone else. and while i feel like i just have to live with whatever comes along, i dont know if i'm sad or happy or not feeling at all. i dont know if i should try to bring things back to the way they were or if that would just be selfish because things changed for the better for someone after the turn. i'm sorry, this probably isnt making much sense.
basically, you impacted my life so much and helped me find who i am. i discovered my sense of style, the kind of music i like, the type of perosn i want to be when i met you. and it's just really hard realizing that the person who helped you find out who you are doesnt even know you anymore. it's difficult to know that i dont even know you anymore when you've helped me discover all this about myself. i guess i just dont get it. you helped me find me, but then you left. you just mean alot to me, and it's just kinda hard to accept that i'm in this by myself.
it's so much easier to have your life revolve around someone rather than something. people complain about it all the time; they complain about how being in love and having that feeling of needing to revolve your life around someone else's is so annoying. but when they're not in love anymore, that's all they're looking for. when you dont have anyone to revolve your life around, you begin to wonder what your life should revolve around. you start to question the purpose of your life. it is so important to feel like you are needed in someone else's life, that you are special, that you made a difference. i guess it's true when they say that the life becomes worth living the most when you have someone to life for.
when you care so much about someone, it's like you're in this bubble where nothing else matters but at the same time, you are so free and so open to the world that you see and learn things you've never thought of before.
2 years ago, i was able to tell each day apart. every day was different, and everyday was important. now, everything is so blurred and i wonder where the year has gone because nothing important particularly stands out in my mind. it's weird how i remember everything that happened 2 years ago so perfectly, but i cant remember what happened a week ago. it's almost like i made a wrong turn 2 years ago, and i know where that turn was. and it sucks because that turn was for the worst for me, but for the best for someone else. and while i feel like i just have to live with whatever comes along, i dont know if i'm sad or happy or not feeling at all. i dont know if i should try to bring things back to the way they were or if that would just be selfish because things changed for the better for someone after the turn. i'm sorry, this probably isnt making much sense.
basically, you impacted my life so much and helped me find who i am. i discovered my sense of style, the kind of music i like, the type of perosn i want to be when i met you. and it's just really hard realizing that the person who helped you find out who you are doesnt even know you anymore. it's difficult to know that i dont even know you anymore when you've helped me discover all this about myself. i guess i just dont get it. you helped me find me, but then you left. you just mean alot to me, and it's just kinda hard to accept that i'm in this by myself.