thank you
for the first time in a very long time, i'm comfortable with myself. and i like being me. i never disliked being me or my life; i usually always was appreciative of my life and everything i have. i always considered myself lucky and was happy. but right now, i feel like i have reached a level of self-awareness and acceptance and it feels really good... just to be comfortable in your own skin. i always say that i want to be free-spirited like all of kate hudson's roles and i think i am. i guess i've just come to a point where i've realized that as selfish as it sounds, life is about yourself and having fun. of course, you can care about other people and stuff and not be completely selfish.... because if you genuinely cared about someone, that would be considered part of "yourself"; they would be considered part of "yourself". i think we just need to find ourselves (as cliche as that sounds) and do things genuinely and passionately and we will really be happy and comfortable.
it's almost the feeling you get after watching "little black book".... so in the end, you dont get the guy. but you're okay with it because you are you and happy to be just that.
i've always been somewhat ashamed of my innocence and naivety to things, but now, i kinda like it. it makes me different. it makes me.. me. maybe for a while, i was too eager and was rushing to be "corrupted" (not in that way, you dirty minded people)... but just, experienced i guess you can say. and i guess i was, for a while, a bit upset with the people who didnt want to corrupt me and respected my innocence more than i did... but now, i'm really appreciative to them for that because innocence is something so precious; it's hard to keep, but so easy to lose. before i'd view myself as a weak person for not experiencing certain things, but now, i see that i'm just letting life take its course. there is no rush to anything because if you rush through everything or spend all your time analyzing or planning, you wont have anytime to actually live.
dont get me wrong. i still wanna be a rockstar. and i still wanna be really really famous. yeah, i'm vain sometimes, but that's okay. i'm blunt... but it's honest and i genuinely am passionate about these dreams. i'm happy that i have learned how to have fun without depending on someone else; i've learned how to do things for me and prioritize my happiness and life before other things. i guess i've just learned how to see the difference between having fun for me and having fun for someone else.
someone told me that if you just have fun and be yourself, the right people will come to you. and if the person you want to come to you doesnt once you are being yourself and are happy with that, they arent worth your time anyway. of course, they might still be really fun to hang out with and it might be really fun to just pursue them alittle, but they shouldnt be what your life revolves around, nor should anyone else or anything else at that.
live for yourself and live it up. be genuine, passionate, truthful, and real. you'll be happy and you'll have fun. but most of all, you'll find yourself and you'll be comfortable with that.
thank you to everyone who has inspired me. if one person i've come across in my life were missing or it happened that i never did come across them, i dont think i'd be the same today. everyone who's path has crossed mine, i believe, has impacted me and my decisions... and i'm thankful to them for the influence they've had on me. it's so weird thinking that if you made one choice differently, everything you know now could be completely altered.
if i chose to take different classes this summer, if i chose to stick with my dad's original plan and took a chemistry class or a math class or something, my summer would have been so different and i would not have gotten to meet the people i've met, learned the things that i've learned, and experienced the things i have experienced. i'm really glad i chose the road i am on now.
screenwriting and costume design were the best summer classes ever, and the people i took these classes with are just.... amazing.
it's almost the feeling you get after watching "little black book".... so in the end, you dont get the guy. but you're okay with it because you are you and happy to be just that.
i've always been somewhat ashamed of my innocence and naivety to things, but now, i kinda like it. it makes me different. it makes me.. me. maybe for a while, i was too eager and was rushing to be "corrupted" (not in that way, you dirty minded people)... but just, experienced i guess you can say. and i guess i was, for a while, a bit upset with the people who didnt want to corrupt me and respected my innocence more than i did... but now, i'm really appreciative to them for that because innocence is something so precious; it's hard to keep, but so easy to lose. before i'd view myself as a weak person for not experiencing certain things, but now, i see that i'm just letting life take its course. there is no rush to anything because if you rush through everything or spend all your time analyzing or planning, you wont have anytime to actually live.
dont get me wrong. i still wanna be a rockstar. and i still wanna be really really famous. yeah, i'm vain sometimes, but that's okay. i'm blunt... but it's honest and i genuinely am passionate about these dreams. i'm happy that i have learned how to have fun without depending on someone else; i've learned how to do things for me and prioritize my happiness and life before other things. i guess i've just learned how to see the difference between having fun for me and having fun for someone else.
someone told me that if you just have fun and be yourself, the right people will come to you. and if the person you want to come to you doesnt once you are being yourself and are happy with that, they arent worth your time anyway. of course, they might still be really fun to hang out with and it might be really fun to just pursue them alittle, but they shouldnt be what your life revolves around, nor should anyone else or anything else at that.
live for yourself and live it up. be genuine, passionate, truthful, and real. you'll be happy and you'll have fun. but most of all, you'll find yourself and you'll be comfortable with that.
thank you to everyone who has inspired me. if one person i've come across in my life were missing or it happened that i never did come across them, i dont think i'd be the same today. everyone who's path has crossed mine, i believe, has impacted me and my decisions... and i'm thankful to them for the influence they've had on me. it's so weird thinking that if you made one choice differently, everything you know now could be completely altered.
if i chose to take different classes this summer, if i chose to stick with my dad's original plan and took a chemistry class or a math class or something, my summer would have been so different and i would not have gotten to meet the people i've met, learned the things that i've learned, and experienced the things i have experienced. i'm really glad i chose the road i am on now.
screenwriting and costume design were the best summer classes ever, and the people i took these classes with are just.... amazing.