my movie, my pictures.... DONE WITH MY 1ST YEAR IN COLLEGE
sometimes, the timing of things is so weird and so movie-like, you begin to think...maybe this is all a movie. we watch movies and laugh when the girl happens to be somewhere and the boy also magically happens to be there too, and we say that that stuff never happens in real life. but it does. and when we realize that it does, it makes even more sense that life may just be one big movie.
and everything does happen for a reason, so we shouldnt regret things because it happened the way it was supposed to.
at first, being a freshman was difficult. i hated it. but i think in some ways, i grew up alittle bit. i used to be at a stage where i just wanted to turn back time and completely dreaded the idea of being any older than 18. but i learned and it took me a while to see that it's not that bad after all, and i think, finally, i'm enjoying life in the present moment, just living in and for the now. the things that are supposed to make sense do and those that dont arent supposed to.
i did not dorm, and people say i missed out on my 1st year automatically with that. but really, i got to experience more than i thought and i dont feel as though i missed out. i noticed that i was hanging around more older people, and at first it was really cool because i was the youngest and it felt like they would be responsible to take care of and protect me, but watching them remember their stories made me realize... i dont have any because im spending my time with people who already went through what im supposed to be going through now. yes, these people are so amazing and im so lucky to have them, but i also realized the importance of growing up with people your age (or at least have a variation of people of different ages, not just all older, younger, or same) and relating to people in that way as well.
i'm rambling, but basically, the main point of this entry is: i had fun being a 1st year and i dont regret anything about it. i would say that i miss not taking enough pictures because i was planning this big entry thing for the end of the school year (which is now). i imagined it to have a picture of every boy i thought was cute here and every person i thought was cool, but obviously, i didnt get to take a picture of everyone. so i came to the conclusion that the people in the following pictures are the people i was supposed to take pictures of.
they were people who were always with me, and they should be who i want to see pictures of. and im very thankful for them and even those not in these pictures.
there was a boy who made fall and winter quarters seem just like a movie because he'd magically appear wherever i turned. so many people. so many memories. wow. it feels like i just graduated high school again. every quarter was a year of high school... and this break, also known as summer, resembles my high school graduation.
i learned so much, and it just kicked in: there is no real rush in life; we dont need to know anything until we are ready to. everything happens for a reason and everything we do impacts and affects what will happen as well. live each day as though it were your last and dont worry so much about what other people say or do. the main purpose of life is to be happy, have fun, and learn how to be self-less for someone but not realize it because it is what is giving you the most joy.
it feels like it'll all be okay. my 1st year was memorable, exciting, and successful in teaching me the things i needed to learn. so this really is my movie. and i'm really liking it right now.
*PICTURES TO BE ADDED SOON*
"it's then i realized that reality is even more fun than absolute fantasy"
"Creation and destruction become one in the act of love, and during a fraction of a second man has a glimpse of a more perfect state of being... to realize itself, love must violate the laws of our world. It is scandalous and disorderly, a transgression committed by two stars that break out of their predestined orbits and rush together in the midst of space. The romantic conception of love, which implies a breaking away and a catastrophe, is the only one we know today because everything in our society prevents love from being a free choice."
*p.s. my sister put on an 80s cd and the first song that came on was rick springfield's "jessie's girl"! i wonder how liam's doing. he's going to be a rockstar someday.
**p.s.s. katrina and i have a plan. we are gonna have business endeavors and have a lot of fun doing that
and everything does happen for a reason, so we shouldnt regret things because it happened the way it was supposed to.
at first, being a freshman was difficult. i hated it. but i think in some ways, i grew up alittle bit. i used to be at a stage where i just wanted to turn back time and completely dreaded the idea of being any older than 18. but i learned and it took me a while to see that it's not that bad after all, and i think, finally, i'm enjoying life in the present moment, just living in and for the now. the things that are supposed to make sense do and those that dont arent supposed to.
i did not dorm, and people say i missed out on my 1st year automatically with that. but really, i got to experience more than i thought and i dont feel as though i missed out. i noticed that i was hanging around more older people, and at first it was really cool because i was the youngest and it felt like they would be responsible to take care of and protect me, but watching them remember their stories made me realize... i dont have any because im spending my time with people who already went through what im supposed to be going through now. yes, these people are so amazing and im so lucky to have them, but i also realized the importance of growing up with people your age (or at least have a variation of people of different ages, not just all older, younger, or same) and relating to people in that way as well.
i'm rambling, but basically, the main point of this entry is: i had fun being a 1st year and i dont regret anything about it. i would say that i miss not taking enough pictures because i was planning this big entry thing for the end of the school year (which is now). i imagined it to have a picture of every boy i thought was cute here and every person i thought was cool, but obviously, i didnt get to take a picture of everyone. so i came to the conclusion that the people in the following pictures are the people i was supposed to take pictures of.
they were people who were always with me, and they should be who i want to see pictures of. and im very thankful for them and even those not in these pictures.
there was a boy who made fall and winter quarters seem just like a movie because he'd magically appear wherever i turned. so many people. so many memories. wow. it feels like i just graduated high school again. every quarter was a year of high school... and this break, also known as summer, resembles my high school graduation.
i learned so much, and it just kicked in: there is no real rush in life; we dont need to know anything until we are ready to. everything happens for a reason and everything we do impacts and affects what will happen as well. live each day as though it were your last and dont worry so much about what other people say or do. the main purpose of life is to be happy, have fun, and learn how to be self-less for someone but not realize it because it is what is giving you the most joy.
it feels like it'll all be okay. my 1st year was memorable, exciting, and successful in teaching me the things i needed to learn. so this really is my movie. and i'm really liking it right now.
*PICTURES TO BE ADDED SOON*
"it's then i realized that reality is even more fun than absolute fantasy"
"Creation and destruction become one in the act of love, and during a fraction of a second man has a glimpse of a more perfect state of being... to realize itself, love must violate the laws of our world. It is scandalous and disorderly, a transgression committed by two stars that break out of their predestined orbits and rush together in the midst of space. The romantic conception of love, which implies a breaking away and a catastrophe, is the only one we know today because everything in our society prevents love from being a free choice."
*p.s. my sister put on an 80s cd and the first song that came on was rick springfield's "jessie's girl"! i wonder how liam's doing. he's going to be a rockstar someday.
**p.s.s. katrina and i have a plan. we are gonna have business endeavors and have a lot of fun doing that