so...
i wanted so much to disappear from your memory so you'd wonder "what happened to her". but absence brings absence. change. but i dont know if i want to talk to you again, or if i'm ready to. i dont know if i want the "let's be cool with each other" sorta deal or if i want the dramatic movie-ike deal where we dont talk for a billion years and all of a sudden bump into each other and remember stuff from before. we havent known each other or shared anything to make the 2nd choice happen. so i guess i'm leaning towards the 1st... which means, it wasn't anything special like ever. so yeah. you were never the person who'd make me feel like it was all like the movies. you're not gonna be anyone serious to me. so that's good. yay, we can be friends again