happiness doesn't last
*sigh*
i don't feel like putting in much detail. lets see how simple i can make this... hmm...
yesterday: chilled with jamie. got $10 b/c we're hot. saw brandon! came home chilled with eileen.
last night: best night in a very long time <3
this morning: i was glowing for the first time in months
throughout the day: it died.
afterschool: i took some pills and went to sleep for a few hours
now: being really upset.
i feel: like i'm the one who fucked up this time.
well... it was nice being sincerely happy for the few hours it lasted.
and my dad just came in. he heard me yelling last night. i actually tried to talk to him. he didn't flip out or anything. but he wouldn't even let me get the whole story out. he left.
it's my turn to break down now.
and when i do it, i'm all alone.
always alone.
i don't feel like putting in much detail. lets see how simple i can make this... hmm...
yesterday: chilled with jamie. got $10 b/c we're hot. saw brandon! came home chilled with eileen.
last night: best night in a very long time <3
this morning: i was glowing for the first time in months
throughout the day: it died.
afterschool: i took some pills and went to sleep for a few hours
now: being really upset.
i feel: like i'm the one who fucked up this time.
well... it was nice being sincerely happy for the few hours it lasted.
and my dad just came in. he heard me yelling last night. i actually tried to talk to him. he didn't flip out or anything. but he wouldn't even let me get the whole story out. he left.
it's my turn to break down now.
and when i do it, i'm all alone.
always alone.