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i swear to god people need to fucking find themselves before they go into a relationship because the same fucking thing keeps on happening to me and its fucked up
you find someone
become intrigued
start letting your guard down
something happens to them where they loose some connection to the outside world like loosing a cell phone or getting their appartment broken into or both
then they loose touch with you
then they start freaking out about how they don't know what to do with their lives
resort back to their past
and kick you out of their lives for reminding them of their unknown future and even though you are nothing but genuine and kind they can't deal with you anymore
and then i end up getting dumped and screwed over just when i think things are beginning
seriously this has happened to me my entire life
every relationship i've had has ended this way
i don't understand it
i'm pretty sure of my path and myself right now as a person and i just want to experience life with someone who is interested in life and the possibilities of having a life with someone else who genuinely cares about you
and some of these people find new people to have relationships with and so i understand the break in the long run but others who ended things too abruptly i've found haven't grown from it at all
the past two have been the ladder
i don't get it
i don't get it
and i'm not lonely and bitching its just utmost confusion on my behalf on how i can't seem to find anyone with the same idea of a relationship as i have and i always see this happen to the people that want to live and be loved the most and i don't understand how the genuine continue to be screwed over
'Will you say to me when I'm gone,
"Your face has faded but lingers on,
Because light strikes a deal with each coming night." '
you find someone
become intrigued
start letting your guard down
something happens to them where they loose some connection to the outside world like loosing a cell phone or getting their appartment broken into or both
then they loose touch with you
then they start freaking out about how they don't know what to do with their lives
resort back to their past
and kick you out of their lives for reminding them of their unknown future and even though you are nothing but genuine and kind they can't deal with you anymore
and then i end up getting dumped and screwed over just when i think things are beginning
seriously this has happened to me my entire life
every relationship i've had has ended this way
i don't understand it
i'm pretty sure of my path and myself right now as a person and i just want to experience life with someone who is interested in life and the possibilities of having a life with someone else who genuinely cares about you
and some of these people find new people to have relationships with and so i understand the break in the long run but others who ended things too abruptly i've found haven't grown from it at all
the past two have been the ladder
i don't get it
i don't get it
and i'm not lonely and bitching its just utmost confusion on my behalf on how i can't seem to find anyone with the same idea of a relationship as i have and i always see this happen to the people that want to live and be loved the most and i don't understand how the genuine continue to be screwed over
'Will you say to me when I'm gone,
"Your face has faded but lingers on,
Because light strikes a deal with each coming night." '