My birthday amongst other things....
Well yeah I turned 20 years old the other day and it was cool. I had a little party at Shakey's Pizza and it was cool. I got a bunch of awesome presents and that was cool. My friends cam and we had a lot of fun and that was cool. After that we went to the club and it was cool. Rebecca left without even saying goodbye and that was so NOT cool. Jason hugged me like a million times and put his arms around me and gave me some birthday dances and that was SUPER cool. After the club we went to Denny's and that was cool. He was sitting next to me and that was cool. He said that he wants to cook for me and that is cool. We said goodbye it was sad but he gave me the greatest hug and that was cool. The next day I tried to talk to Rebecca about it but she was oh so busy like she always is when I need to talk to her and that...was expected. Chris is my boyfriend now and I feel emptier inside than I have ever felt. Jason is in my every thought and it makes me happy. I think of him and I smile. I think of what he says and I laugh. I think of him touching me and it makes me want to scream inside and outside with joy. When he is around I dont see anyone else, I dont think of anyone else, I dont hear anyone else...just him. I want him...so bad that it hurts. Now what do I do??? What happens when thoughts of him arent enough??? How unfair is this to Chris??? God, why cant life be easier???
Why???
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