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So a while back I was worried if you were pissed off at me. You said you weren't. But now....
I don't mean to be dramatic, but I'm changing my life and this is a small part of it. So please read it all. Or I'll keep bugging you until you do.
Every friend I make, I compare to you and none of them measure up. I have yet to make another close friend, to meet someone I can open to like I did with you years ago. Your friendship spoiled me. Probably news to you. In fact there's a lot of things you did that you may not have thought made an impact, and with me, that's the whole thing, it's the little things that people do that I take notice of.
And I'm out here, looking for another D, knowing, in the back of my head, that there is NO OTHER D! But nonetheless, I look and hope. Despairing in the fact that no one else has, or will, meet my high expectations (which I wouldn't have had if it weren't for you). I'd like to find someone I can confide in. You aren't available anymore. The tack room burned down, the Blue Barbarian closed up shop. You're busy making your life work for you and you have no time for the likes of me, I was just another disconsolate soul hitchhiking on the information super highway and you just happened to show me a bit of kindness that I took to heart. And you're probably regretting it right about now. However, instead of being pissed off at you, I admire you, for your determination, your ability to move on, for making your dreams come true. Even if it does mean that I no longer have the ability to converse with you on a daily basis.
I will haunt you until you give me something that will make me think of you as "a dime a dozen" instead of "one in a million". *standing here glaring at you with my arms crossed*
How do I forget that you did more for me than anyone else in my life has (yes, has)? How do I forget that I fucked things up when it came to you? How do I forget that the timing really sucked? Please, tell me, how do I forget regretting the fact that I ever met you?
Tell me one thing that would give me a tarnished image of you. Just one thing that will lower you off of that damned pedestal I've placed you on, because I've already tried to tear it down. And I can't find another "good" friend until your ass comes down! I'm not looking for a philosophy lesson either.
I don't mean to be dramatic, but I'm changing my life and this is a small part of it. So please read it all. Or I'll keep bugging you until you do.
Every friend I make, I compare to you and none of them measure up. I have yet to make another close friend, to meet someone I can open to like I did with you years ago. Your friendship spoiled me. Probably news to you. In fact there's a lot of things you did that you may not have thought made an impact, and with me, that's the whole thing, it's the little things that people do that I take notice of.
And I'm out here, looking for another D, knowing, in the back of my head, that there is NO OTHER D! But nonetheless, I look and hope. Despairing in the fact that no one else has, or will, meet my high expectations (which I wouldn't have had if it weren't for you). I'd like to find someone I can confide in. You aren't available anymore. The tack room burned down, the Blue Barbarian closed up shop. You're busy making your life work for you and you have no time for the likes of me, I was just another disconsolate soul hitchhiking on the information super highway and you just happened to show me a bit of kindness that I took to heart. And you're probably regretting it right about now. However, instead of being pissed off at you, I admire you, for your determination, your ability to move on, for making your dreams come true. Even if it does mean that I no longer have the ability to converse with you on a daily basis.
I will haunt you until you give me something that will make me think of you as "a dime a dozen" instead of "one in a million". *standing here glaring at you with my arms crossed*
How do I forget that you did more for me than anyone else in my life has (yes, has)? How do I forget that I fucked things up when it came to you? How do I forget that the timing really sucked? Please, tell me, how do I forget regretting the fact that I ever met you?
Tell me one thing that would give me a tarnished image of you. Just one thing that will lower you off of that damned pedestal I've placed you on, because I've already tried to tear it down. And I can't find another "good" friend until your ass comes down! I'm not looking for a philosophy lesson either.