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i don't expect anyone to understand who i am.
i've struggled with myself enough to realize it is hard enough at times to identify my once familiar face... even for myself.
i'm choking on words and i'm sorry for that.
i don't know what you want to hear and even worse, i don't know what i want to hear.
i've tried to be independant and it's done me okay so far.
but i don't want that anymore.
i want someone there for me.
as i aspire to be there for them.
it's been the hardest thing to do and it means more than anything for me.
i wish that certain people could understand how important they are to me.
and how much of a better person i am when i'm with them.
maybe i've lost myself, but i'm willing to be found.
i just hope that's worth something.
please god, let it be worth something.
i'm sorry i have feelings.
even worse, i'm not sorry they are for you.
i've struggled with myself enough to realize it is hard enough at times to identify my once familiar face... even for myself.
i'm choking on words and i'm sorry for that.
i don't know what you want to hear and even worse, i don't know what i want to hear.
i've tried to be independant and it's done me okay so far.
but i don't want that anymore.
i want someone there for me.
as i aspire to be there for them.
it's been the hardest thing to do and it means more than anything for me.
i wish that certain people could understand how important they are to me.
and how much of a better person i am when i'm with them.
maybe i've lost myself, but i'm willing to be found.
i just hope that's worth something.
please god, let it be worth something.
i'm sorry i have feelings.
even worse, i'm not sorry they are for you.