new piece by yours truly

[a1shiteru]

i breathe the same air
you dont care
even though i know
it wasnt supposed to hurt this much

ive been here one hundred times before
circling around with you always in my mind
the lights are red yet i cant seem to care

every sign is telling me to stop
killing myself over and over agian
here i am on your doorstep
turn your back and let me in
welcome me with open arms
where my dream ends

its taking every part of me not to notice
where you are or how you feel
i keep telling myself i wont care
curiousity takes the best of me
fallen into another pit of despair

*

leave me alone, take my hand,
lead me away from here to where it all began,
promise me one thing but do another
i cant think of anything but her,
i never wanted it to end
but theres no such thing as forever
she keeps repeating
things will get better
even when theres nothing but rain and thunderstorms

im still alive...

kindaa....