depressed
im really super depressed right now i have no one to talk to ..sean (my bestfriend) hates me and i really dont have anyone else eric was a help kinda he came over and talked to me...but he doesn't have his cell phonei've finaly realized how close sean and i were and i totaly regret promising him that i would date HIM when i was ready ....i broke his heart i feel soo bad about it..i've said sorry but it doesn't make it any better...but he told me the other day "do u honestly think i want to date you again...?" tahts what broke my heart i care about him soo much much more than he can know...i can forgive him for what he has done to me why cant he forgive me...he needs to realize people screw up....i know that he screwed up i would have never told his mom all the stuff that he has done that isn't "correct" i just miss my best freind soo much and i want us to go back to how we were no matter how difficult it may be...i think i was a perty good girl frined i never cheated on him all i did was care and we were together soo much...i feel soo depressed i wanna cry soo bad...i thought about taking a bunch of meds. earlier and seeing if i would wake up maybe then sean's heart would stop hurting when mine stopped beating..... 