Godbless
*This is for you... as much as i want to say "i hate you" for the things you've done to me im not. First of all your being so immature, and i'm glad I found out exactly how decietfull and malicious you can be when your mad. i tried my hardest to be so nice about this whole thing and this is what i get...but oh well. you said you dont care how mad i get i shouldn't fuck with someone's job.. well your the one who punched the wall buddy not meyou fucked ur self over... do u acctualy think it wouldn't get back to kathy hahahah?u think she wouldn't notice a gapping hole in the wall? i have this to say to you..."i dont care how mad you get u shouldn't fuck with someone's life!" i wasn't ever mean, rude, or disrespectfull to u and u wanna go and tattle on me to my mom like some child.... but im actualy glad you told her... it makes me feel better...i have like a load off my shoulders. mom heard your messages and voicemails and i told her what u said as i was leaving ...and let me tell you how proud she is of you-------->she's so proud she's thinking of pressing charges on you for contributing to the delinquincey of a minor. sean i honestly don't hate you...i came real close to it though...im just devasted...i wish you would have been more matture about all this...what did u think you were going to accomplish by "tattling" on me...im glad i know just how hurtfull u can be....im not mad really that u told her im ferious that you did it to hurt me... that must mean you dont really care about me like u thought ... maybe you should reevaluate ur emotions and actions....I really dont understand you sean in this whole thing your the one who was being mean, deceitfull, and nasty... your the one who went behind my back and looked at my journal online....your the one who cursed me out just b/c of my feelings...your the one who asked me to choose like an immatture child...your the one who went behind my back and told our buisness to everyone even tho i asked you not to politley 3 times and all three time you agreed....your the one who went behind my back and told my mom all this shit.... look at the bigger picture sean...all i did was speak my mind on paper i was never once rude to you through this whole thing. i should have never promised you that as soon as i was ready i would date you b/c i can't predict the future and im wrong for that... but look at the picture i've painted for you... all i can say is i dont want to talk to you for a long time so until i decide i want to you can find out what's going on in my life by reading my journal.......................................................................................
here sean listen to doubtfull on nfg cd (catalyst) it explains everything i feel