not in the mood
I feel like whenever I come here to write something Im saying that I have nothing to say, or Im saying that I don'y like all this bull shit thast going around. whatever. schools not hard but for some reason its stressing me out. it seems like I can't keep my mouth shut when Im with James which is really hurtful to him. and I don't like hurting him like that. maybe I need a new journal with new thoughts. I wish I could just trade my life in for a brand new shiny one. like a car. you know how when theres nothing really wrong but you just don't like the car anymore? Lisa is getting worried about me I think. but Im fine Im not sad nor happy which is neither bad nor good. my family is gone at the annual thanksgiving eve service. I didn't go because my neck hurts. which is good I think for once I might actually practice. I don't like working when they are home. they are always watching me which might be why Im paranoid. and don't worry rachel I'll finish the book before tomarrow. Im ready to listen to emo and watch the rain fall outside of my window. or maybe I'll work on my purse. better is a long way from here, I hope the weather doesn't slow me down.