this song is so depressing
i feel so disgusting.
just like i repel everyone and everything, i havent felt like this for a while.
my self image fluxuates so its like one minute i feel so good and then someone looks at me and its like i have these giant holes going through my body. i feel so gross, its not that they are looking, i could give a shit how many people look at me...we have eyes right? its just that i'm so disgusting sometimes, what i am to myself is so...wrong...its not like i feel impure or anything i just feel like shit when people say sometimg good about me. no matter how i say it i cant make it sound right.
and sometimes i'm different...i like compliments, every once in a while.
i just dont feel like i'm half as great as people see me and it bothers me that i fool people. i honestly want to pour battery acid on my face sometimes...i hate it...its like this itch, that never goes away.
lately i've been really happy...unexplained happiness, good sleep. i hate it that i cant always feel happy.
and i know whoever reads this is gonna be like "oh god, she's whining" and yes, your right, go jump off a cliff.
just like i repel everyone and everything, i havent felt like this for a while.
my self image fluxuates so its like one minute i feel so good and then someone looks at me and its like i have these giant holes going through my body. i feel so gross, its not that they are looking, i could give a shit how many people look at me...we have eyes right? its just that i'm so disgusting sometimes, what i am to myself is so...wrong...its not like i feel impure or anything i just feel like shit when people say sometimg good about me. no matter how i say it i cant make it sound right.
and sometimes i'm different...i like compliments, every once in a while.
i just dont feel like i'm half as great as people see me and it bothers me that i fool people. i honestly want to pour battery acid on my face sometimes...i hate it...its like this itch, that never goes away.
lately i've been really happy...unexplained happiness, good sleep. i hate it that i cant always feel happy.
and i know whoever reads this is gonna be like "oh god, she's whining" and yes, your right, go jump off a cliff.