J - E - R - K spells JERK!!!

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how can someone be so discontent with life? so miles amazingly showed up at the meeting tonight (late of course) and asked to go out to get a bite to eat afterward... i agreed and we left for perkins... he goes on this trip about trans issues and spends an hour summing up why he will never call mick by male pronouns and about the "curable condition" of the transgender identity... god it pissed me off so bad, he's such a narrow minded jerk... why did i put up with it? then he went on a tirade about how sucky winona is (big change from what he always talks about...) and he actually got aggravated at me for saying that just because he's from a big city doesn't mean he knows real life everywhere any better than anyone else... he started to yell at me heh... it was kind of amusing until i realized we were in public... he went on and on about all these things and not a single thing he said was optimistic, positive, upbeat or nice... everything was cold, negative, pessimistic and defeatist... typical of miles... he's just not grateful for anything... he could have such a worse life... i told him about a friend of mine who's been having it pretty rough right now and the fact that someone might have it worse didn't even occur or matter to him... all he thinks about is how bad his life is... i told him flat out, that i could never be with him and that i dont know why i like him... with his attitude i would never work out wit him... must just be because he's cute... i like what he does for me... but now how he thinks, his beliefs are narrow minded and grossly ignorant... as smart as he tries to act, he's just a prick... a cute cuddly prick... we spent till 3am last night doing the "i'm sorry matt i'll be better" time... it usually happens once i get on his case, he'll come over to make up until the next time... *rolls eyes* if we keep having these "healthy discussions" as he calls them, i'm going to end up hating him... i loose respect for him when he spouts out all this stuff... he really makes a fool of himself with his limited capacity to understand the world outside of his psychology text book... the miles-ism's have to go... gah... he has so many issues i wish he could work on... i thought i was messed up... no, no not really, not compared to him - he's got some deep rooted hatred toward women in general and especially those he perceives as outside of the typical woman-jane ideal. (such as lesbians and transgenders) he makes me so glad i'm not like him... lol if that makes any sense...

in other news... a really really hot guy knocked on my door tonight asking me when the next bus was to arrive?!?!?! he called me by name (which i realize is all over my door but he used my name as if he knew me and was comfortable around me) i dont think i knew him... i'd never see him before... and what an odd question to ask, but when i said "um i think 2:45" i wanted to add "which leaves you plenty of time to step in here and make out with me!!!" heh.... how odd... hope he comes back, only next time for a cup of sugar ;-)

get to dress up with a tie tomorrow for the senate meeting... woohaa... haven't worn my favorite (and only) gold tie in a while yet <3

i think that's it for tonight, i better post before the big "west campus internet blackout" occurs... we wont have phone or internet until noon tomorrow... how sucky...