THAT MEME
The return of the son of the relationship meme a la .hack//G.U. style! Comment here, listing your characters, and which of my characters they know. I'll reply with an affection~ meter~ to let you know what how they feel about you
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It's kind of horrible because I don't even know how to put this in ESSAY form, much less dot form. I think Devit's feelings on Shuri are tied with his feelings on the Earl for "most complicated" and "widest range of emotion," where he swings back and forth between love and hate and whatever is inbetween.
Okay so. Devit knows that Shuri thinks he's gross and evil and an abomination and so on. And HE HATES THAT and when Shuri says it to his face it makes him murderous and so on. BUT at this point, he also understands and expects it. Like I essayed once about how in camp, Devit HAS LEARNED SOMETHING, which is that humans don't understand what they are and the way the Noahs see them! Once upon a time, he thought it was a self-delusion or a willful wrong, but now he really does get that humans . . . can't see it because they don't have the Noah, and that if he were in the same position he would feel the same way. I mean. He knows humans are WRONG about how they see themselves and the Noah. But he understands that there is NO PHYSICAL WAY for them to not be wrong because they don't have Noah's genes. And he knows now that he can never talk a human into realizing that they're evil and inferior and disgusting and deserve to be destroyed. EVEN THOUGH IT'S TRUE. He still "knows" that it's true. But he's less angry that humans DON'T. They can't help being inferior and misinformed.
IN SOME WAYS Shuri to Devit is like the epitome of humanity and everything he hates about it. He's cowardly and self-centered and deluded and xenophobic. These are all traits Devit ALSO HAS, but he excuses them in himself, and he can't excuse them in humans, because in Noah's eyes this is what has led to 7000 years of humans abusing one another and Noah and God and the world. So when Devit thinks of humans, Shuri is the kind of human he thinks of. ALSO Devit was bullied in the past by humans who were . . . like Shuri! Who call him "monster" and look down on him and so on. And so he just really, really hates that kind of guy. And it kills him because he knows Shuri isn't better than he is, he KNOWS Shuri is a cowardly weak little pussy who is a useless soldier and people hate him and so on. But Shuri THINKS OTHERWISE! and it pisses Devit off SO MUCH.
So like back in the day, Devit would just say that stuff to Shuri to make him feel bad and torment him, and that would make Devit feel better! Yay! :D But--it didn't feel that good, in some ways? Because Shuri got really freaked out and EW about Devit and omg monster and you don't deserve to live you abomination! and so on. And the point of Devit tormenting Shuri had been to make Shuri realize he was INFERIOR to Devit, not to make him realize Devit was . . . a disgusting abomination. Devit really hates it, REALLY hates it, when people think that about him. So he started feeling bad, because it backfired! Shuri was scared of him and cried and realized he was weak and pathetic and all but he ALSO basically thought of Devit as an animal and it made Devit really, really mad and kind of sick-feeling inside, that this horrible, worthless, typical human should cringe away from him that way.
Also uh now Devit is dating Shuri's cousin and yeah. And Jasdero is gone! And in general there's just nothing he can do against Shuri anymore, and he knows it. He's taken him as low as he can go without hurting or breaking him, neither of which he can do without risking everything for no actual gain. The only thing left to do is . . . bicker and be bitches at one another. WHICH IS WHERE PART TWO COMES IN. IN THE NEXT COMMENT.
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