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Again and again I have to struggle with dealing who I am. Actually not who I am, but what I feel I should look like.
I know I will never be "perfect", I feel I am not suppose to have this body this face this shell that I have.
Will I ever be the way I feel I should be, I guess I torture myself. I think well Larissa you got yourself here and are completely unable to change it then why should you be happy? Why should you be the girl that people look twice at?
So there for why not punish myself continue to state I am not worthy.
So tell me why can I not just step up make the changes I want, there is no point in continuously hating myself for what I have and haven't done.
I am 22 years of age now, I am not 17 and angsty anymore. So now this is my life I am the one in control of it and my happiness. Over the last couple years I have changed how I think about so many different aspects and have gone through things no one goes through or at least not till they are in their late 30's or 40's. I don't relate to alot of people I have been in contact with for years everything is dwindling.
I have made a lot of wrong choices and have learned so much. I know this is something I can do. I need the motivation I have sculpted my mind now I can sculpt my outer being. I do deserve this despite what my brain tells me.
I know I will never be "perfect", I feel I am not suppose to have this body this face this shell that I have.
Will I ever be the way I feel I should be, I guess I torture myself. I think well Larissa you got yourself here and are completely unable to change it then why should you be happy? Why should you be the girl that people look twice at?
So there for why not punish myself continue to state I am not worthy.
So tell me why can I not just step up make the changes I want, there is no point in continuously hating myself for what I have and haven't done.
I am 22 years of age now, I am not 17 and angsty anymore. So now this is my life I am the one in control of it and my happiness. Over the last couple years I have changed how I think about so many different aspects and have gone through things no one goes through or at least not till they are in their late 30's or 40's. I don't relate to alot of people I have been in contact with for years everything is dwindling.
I have made a lot of wrong choices and have learned so much. I know this is something I can do. I need the motivation I have sculpted my mind now I can sculpt my outer being. I do deserve this despite what my brain tells me.