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i think watching one of your close friends lose all touch with reality and a grip on themself is the most harrowing experiences. it's like reliving a nightmare you had forgotten from childhood's past. this weekend i was just gonna study non-stop for my bio midterm and hang out with my mother. now none of that seems as urgent as this. i think i know now how my friends used to describe their helplessness. all you can do is sit their watch and hope that they'll help themselves somehow while you sit there and try not to lose it for their sake.