Scotty doesn't know that Fiona and me do it in my van every Sunday...
Dude, life is good.
Or at least, this could so totally be worse. I have the whole network with the nurses happening, I totally have whatever I want while I'm stuck here. Plus I've got Alex making visits when she's not busy for naughty time stuff. This isn't so bad ( Read more... )
Or at least, this could so totally be worse. I have the whole network with the nurses happening, I totally have whatever I want while I'm stuck here. Plus I've got Alex making visits when she's not busy for naughty time stuff. This isn't so bad ( Read more... )
That isn't fair.
I know life sucks for me. Everything that I said and did put me in this position. I brought it all on myself. Things were good, and I ruined them. Completely and utterly just...I made it all bad. I screwed up, did the self destruction thing, fucked myself over big time.
No matter how you say it, I do not deserve sympathy grattitude from Michael Madsen of all people!
Oh hell...why am I here? This was a bad idea. Sam isn't going to love me any more for doing this than he already does. He's angry and upset, and there's a foreign blonde woman who is more than ready to comfort the hell out of him, but fixing Madsen won't do anything for me. It won't work in my favor as much as I thought it would. At all.
If he wants Natasha, he'll be with Natasha. It doesn't matter what I do for the best friend who I can't stand. The damage is done. None of this matters anymore. I could walk out, and it wouldn't make any difference.
I won't. I like knowing that I could, but I won't.
"That's...I'm just, I'm doing what I should, you know?"
"Julia, no!"
I took her from Madsen, rolling my eyes at her nonstop giggling. She's big on slapstick, what can I say? If I didn't have that adult instinct to feel bad when someone is in pain, I'd be laughing my ass off too.
"Okay, you can totally do something about my leg now... maybe press the button to get it normal again if it's cool..."
I nodded and reached over to set the adjustment right, and stopped when it seemed like he was back in place. I grabbed his clip board off of the foot of the bed and started reading through it.
Ew.
"This sounds gross."
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And she's laughing. I'm surprised The Snowflake isn't, but still, Julia's laughing. And I know she totally doesn't understand what she did, but it is so the prinicple of the thing dude! Seriously.
"Thanks." I muttered once The Snowflake had fixed the bed, and winced a little as I tried to make sure my leg was still normal. Totally kills, not cool at all.
"This sounds gross."
"It does?" I looked over, and shrugged. "Well I sort of, y'know, kept fighting after the break, so..." I totally broke his arm too though dude. I rule. I'm not the only one suffering. "But I totally got him back."
Okay, dude, not everyone can have super slayer things, okay? We're allowed to be proud of when we do win because of that. So you totally need to stop looking at me like that. I know you could do it with no problem.
"So... yeah."
Dude, just do it already. Jeez.
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I guess that's a point in my favor. I know the difference between a slayer and a barbarian. Apparently the barbarian just fights for the hell of it. I slay because I have to. The barbarians end up with broken bones. I'd just end up dead.
Funny how that works.
I shook my head, flipping through the last few pages of medical shit to find out exactly what I was dealing with. I hate reading about injuries. I also hate seeing a lot of them, which probably plays a part in my hospital hatred. And I guess this could be considered nosy; I don't really need to see exactly what Madsen did to fix it, but why not? It's not like he knows anything about what I can do with this. I just want to see how much he screwed himself over this time. Maybe it'll make me feel a little better.
"So... yeah."
"Okay. You're going to have to hold Julia again." I handed her back to him, figuring he'd know to keep her away from the buttons this time. Geez. Any idiot could have seen that one coming.
Correction, almost any idiot.
I took out my pocketknife so that I could cut around his cast, when I looked up and noticed the expression on his face.
Oh come on, I'm not that bad.
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"Cool." I nodded, taking her and putting her in my lap again. Don't even think about it dude, you are so totally not getting to those buttons a second time. I'm not going to leave you to your own devices twice. I totally have learned my lesson.
... Dude. She has a knife.
Is she that pissed?
"Dude."
Oh... Wait. It's for the cast? That make sense.
Oh come on dude, can you stop looking at me like that. With you being all pissy, can you put it past me? You totally can't. You're just psycho enough to pull some sort of shit. Especially since you dumped Sammy. You could be totally detached from reality or some shit like that.
"... Anyway."
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I shook my head and put the clipboard back at the foot of the bed. The doctors are going to get a real kick out of this one. I wonder how they're going to explain it. Incorrectly diagnosed the patient, something on the x-ray, mixed up some medical charts...if I wasn't terrified of this place, I think I'd stick around to hear what they had to say. I'm curious to know what a doctor would do in this situation. Madsen has a serious break. The fact that it could heal so fast while he's in their care will pretty much baffle them.
I like this power. I can't stand the asshole I'm using it on, but I like it on it's own. It's a lot more useful than being a slayer. I mean, it would be. If I could actually get the courage to come here more often, I could help people.
No wonder Sam and I are where we are now, I'm selfish.
I cut down the center of the cast, then separated it.
Again, ew.
Alright, healing thing. I'm going to get to work on that.
"Just so you know, you don't deserve this."
And now, I have to concentrate.
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Yeah, yeah, whatever dude, just do it already. I already said I appreciate it. I want to get off this bed already, I'm totally bored. Not that I don't mind hanging out with Julia, I'm just way into walking. It's a cool thing.
I wonder if it hurts when she does it. Or if she can make it hurt. That'd be totally weird. And I wouldn't put it past her to make it hurt somehow. That'd be Snowflake Typical.
I played with Julia while I waited for the Snowflake to start working her magic... or whatever it is. I don't know dude, what does that shit count as?
Whatever. I'm totally going to be all healed up when she's done, that's all that matters.
I'll have to find a way of telling Alex about it that the Snowflake won't find out about.
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Okay yeah, it was.
But this is still disgusting. I hate having to help him. He ruined my friendship with Alex. And back in the day, he really hurt Daphne too. Not that Madsen would ever give a damn about them. Considering how much I did, this is a pretty big punishment for me. This is huge. I'll never do anything like this ever again if I can help it.
I sighed, feeling the warmth of energy in my fingertips, and knew it was working. Too bad. It would have been more interesting if it just decided not to work for him. I couldn't have been blamed for keeping him hurt because I still would have at least tried, and he'd still have to pay for his own stupidity. I like it when he has to do that.
I stayed still, letting it all just happen until the feeling started to fade away. When it was over I moved away from his leg and shook my head. This isn't very fair at all. I can't believe I did it.
"You should be fine." I took Julia from him. I want to get out of here as quickly as possible, this place still gives me the creeps.
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Dude, and that didn't even hurt. That's totally cool, why doesn't she do that shit more often? Seriously, it'd be pretty awesome if she did. I totally know that's what I'd do if... Oh. Wait. Right. Hospitals totally give her a freak out.
That sort of makes sense. Even though, I'd totally want to do something with that. It sucks being the normal dude sometimes, seriously.
But still, at least I've got this. So I can totally skate again, and find a way to get around the Snowflake so I can still do naughty time stuff with Alex.
"Thanks." I said with a nod, getting my leg out of the cast and then trying to stand up. A little off, but I think that's all because of the recent healage, and plus, it's been in a cast.
So really, it's still cool either way. Which is awesome.
"I'll get a doctor dude and get checked out, you're cool to leave." She totally wants to get out of here, you can so tell. I'm cool with that. I want to get out of here too.
I grinned to Julia. "I'll see you around, Jules."
She's a cool little kid. Even if she totally almost killed me with the button thing.
Let's hope her parents work their shit out so she keeps both of them. I totally need to go find Sammy when I get out of here and find out what his deal is right now.
I looked back to the Snowflake, and thought about just not saying anything for a minute. Then, I thought about how Sammy's probably totally shitty right now over her pulling the stupid move, so screw it. "If you get the chance? Work this stuff out with him. 'Cause I totally think that you're going to lose him for real if you don't at least try."
And that's totally all I'm saying to her on it.
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"I know." I shook my head. "But I think its a little late for that."
This feels like the last time we saw each other after we graduated all over again. Sam was the only reason Madsen and I had to be around each other so much in high school. We always tolerating each other for him, right up until the end.
The two of us were happy to go our separate ways when Sam broke up with me, though neither of us wanted Sam to go. I knew that much without ever asking him. And if anything, now it has only become more true that Sam is the reason I've had to put up with Madsen.
I won't be putting up with him for Alex. I won't be speaking to her because of what they're doing, so I don't have to see him anymore for that.
So this is really me tying up loose ends, I guess.
"Take care of yourself."
I walked out quickly, knowing I had to leave on my own, without any coaching. It shouldn't be too hard. Some stairs, a hallway, a little bit of a walk. If I don't look at anything and don't think about where I am, I should be fine. No matter how aware I am that I'm in a hospital.
It's just a building, that's all.
With that in mind, I focused on Julia while walking down the corridor. I could hear the hum of the machines, but the hallway itself was surprising clear, so I walked fast, keeping my attention on my daughter at all times. It seemed to take a while for me to reach the door to the stairs, and I pushed it open and started down.
...Then felt something in back of me and stopped dead. I tried to quiet Julia from her babbling and just listened, hoping to pick up on what was following me, and looked back, seeing nothing, and started going down again. At least if I get closer to an exit, I can fight whatever it is without having to worry about Julia getting hurt.
Now is a really bad fucking time for this.
"You swore you'd never have a kid."
Oh, shit.
I turned around again, this time spotting him only three steps above me, and sighed.
If David's here, I think it goes without saying that I'm going to end up in some serious trouble by the end of the night. That's just the way this works. Every single time. And I'm glad to see that he's alive, but I know that I'm part of some agenda, and I don't want to be involved in that right now.
"What do you want, Dave?"
"Muscle, money, a place to stay. None of those should be a problem for you tonight, I saw him leave."
"How long have you been watching me?"
I can't believe this. I mean, I can, but I don't want to. Its like the entire world is out to get me right now. Or I'm out to let it, which is just as bad. And I don't blame him for doing a little spying before he showed himself, I just, I guess I don't like the idea of him spying on the people around me. Like Sam and Julia. He spied on them by association.
Fourty six hours. I was going to wait the extra two, but I thought you could pass her off to your friend now. He owes you a favor for what you did."
...Excuse me. I know David gets a little crazy sometimes. He's been through hell. If he wants to go insane, thats his own business. But whoever said I was crazy enough to leave my little girl with Madsen?!
"That's a bad idea."
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I thought she might say that. Carly has always been somewhat hesistant to get her hands dirty. Seeing how she has settled into a life here--with the long lost guy she pissed off a few hours ago, I don't imagine her wanting to put any of it at risk.
I'd like to remind her that in the past few days, enough people have stormed out of her apartment to tell me that her schedule is pretty empty, but I could see a statement like that upsetting Carly. She's touchy when it comes to her habit of burning bridges. In her little world, there's a reason for everything and almost none of it involves self blame.
She has other excuses for not wanting to help me too, but under the circumstances, Carly doesn't have a choice. She's the only person I still trust in Los Angeles, and she knows it. I tracked Marquez and his group here on my own, but fighting them alone would be impossible.
Carly always said she'd be there if I needed the help of a slayer. I wouldn't be asking anything from her if it wasn't important.
"I know you trust him, you wouldn't go to all this trouble to heal him if you didn't."
We don't have very much time to waste here. She doesn't want her daughter involved in this, I'm giving her the perfect opportunity to find a sitter. Then we can go, I'll explain everything on the way, and it'll be taken care of as quickly as possible.
"That doesn't mean I like him enough to leave Julia with him."
"Carly." I stepped down so that I was beside her. "You have a beautiful daughter, and I know I'm asking a lot of you by showing up here and making these demands, but I need you now."
I let her have time to think, nervously smiling at the baby while she made up her mind. She'll say yes, but she needs a couple of seconds to get there. From what a few members of the council have told me, Carly doesn't do very much heavy combat now. She does the basics, but rarely goes beyond that because of her family.
I guess she learned from me to be cautious.
"Did I mention I'll only be here for a few days at the most? And that I'm putting my life in your hands here?"
"Well if you're going to be that way about it, fine."
"Good."
"But you're walking me back to his hospital room."
I nodded, walking with her up the stairs, back the way we'd come. Carly has a fear of uncontrollable death, being in a place where there's so much of it terrifies her. That always struck me as ironic about her abilities. She was given a gift that she's too afraid to use.
I stuck close until we were outside the hospital room and debated waiting there for her, until I saw the look on her face.
She needs the support. When we get everything settled I'm going to have to ask her why.
"Madsen, I need you to watch Julia for a few hours--and don't try to get out of it, you owe me and David and I have something we need to take care of."
No threats?
Carly's losing her knack.
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... Dude, what is she doing back here? You'd think she'd be as far as she could get by now.
"Madsen, I need you to watch Julia for a few hours--and don't try to get out of it, you owe me and David and I have something we need to take care of."
Who's David? The dude in the doorway? ... What's the dude doing in the doorway? Is this the new dude already? Okay, if she's over Sammy that fast...
Wait. No, I think it's a business sort of thing. The dude doesn't look like he's attached to her in that way. So it's cool. I think.
But I was going to go do stuff. This isn't fair, come on. She totally planned this somehow. I wouldn't put it past her for a second.
I still can't say no. That's totally not fair. Julia's a cool kid and all, but I need to be out of here and doing what I planned on.
It is so typical Snowflake for her to go and do that right after she healed my leg.
"... Okay, sure." I don't think I'm allowed to ask about the dude in the doorway. I still want to know who he is though, business or otherwise.
"Can you get the car seat in my car before you go, or what?"
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He's not fighting me on it. Why is he not fighting me on it? Am I supposed to be that pathetic now? Even Madsen feels sorry for me? Oh no. No way in hell. I am not that far gone. I don't care how bad the situation is with me and Sam, there's no way Madsen could pity me. And even if there is, I don't want to think about it. I'm supposed to be getting in slayer mode now. My head is supposed to be there, not here, and not with Sam...like it probably is, damnit.
"Can you get the car seat in my car before you go, or what?"
"I'll do you one better." I handed Julia to David, knowing he could take her without scaring her, and opened my purse, looking through it for my car keys. When I found them I tossed the set over to Madsen, and took Julia back. If he thought I was pathetic before, seeing me trying to prolong this with my daughter is only going to make it worse, but I don't think I care very much about that right now.
"Take my car. The seat is set up, it has a center buckle, just pull it all the way down and snap it in." I sighed, hating every second of this. "Bring her back to S--my place, and just let her play a little before she falls asleep."
That isn't too hard, is it? I know its a lot to ask, considering how much neither one of us can stand each other, but I have something important to do. And I think, after the past couple of days Julia has had, with Jake leaving, and Sam coming home and then being suddenly gone too, this is better than leaving her with a sitter. As much as I hate to admit it, she's more comfortable with Madsen than she would be with someone who she sees less of. If he doesn't do anything stupid, it should be fine.
"We should be back in a few hours, if it goes well."
If it doesn't, he can handle it accordingly.
I smiled at Julia, giving her a kiss on the forehead. She's in a better mood now than she was when we left, hopefully she'll be good for him. If something goes wrong, Madsen would call Sam, and he'd know what to do. So this is okay.
"You're going to be good for Uncle Madsen, okay sweetheart?" I laughed at the look I was getting from her. I don't think Julia believes I'd leave her with him, either.
This sucks.
I looked over at Madsen. I think he probably needs to be told this.
"Oh. And no cookies. I know that you probably think that I'm trying to be the Ice Queen, or the Snowflake, or whatever you think it is I am when I tell her that she can't have something, but Sam already gave her a few today. If you decided to be cool Uncle Madsen and give her more, it'll make her sick, and she'll throw up. On you. And I'm not responsible for any ruined clothing if that happens, because this is your warning from me."
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Yeah, yeah, whatever dude. It's not like I don't know how to watch a kid. And she's sort of my niece through Sammy, at least a little, so she's totally family without being blood, as far as I'm concerned. It's cool, I can handle it.
Plus it's not like she can ask Sammy to do it, considering the really big screw up on her part when she had her little freak out over the chick.
"We should be back in a few hours, if it goes well."
"Sure," I nodded, pocketing her keys. She keeps looking like she expects me to start something. Totally not worth it. She did me the favor, I figure this is paying her back, at least a little. I can't stand this chick, but at least I'm doing that much.
Which totally makes me the cool person here. Awesome.
"You're going to be good for Uncle Madsen, okay sweetheart?"
Hey, we get along. It's cool. There's no bad buttons for her to push or anything. I can make it work. Arianna says it's not so bad watching her, I can work it out.
"Oh. And no cookies. I know that you probably think that I'm trying to be the Ice Queen, or the Snowflake, or whatever you think it is I am when I tell her that she can't have something, but Sam already gave her a few today. If you decided to be cool Uncle Madsen and give her more, it'll make her sick, and she'll throw up. On you. And I'm not responsible for any ruined clothing if that happens, because this is your warning from me."
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"Okay... Thanks for that one." Will totally be keeping the little kid away from the cookies. Got it. And she's sorta still talking like she didn't dump Sammy. Weird chick. Totally going to move on now. "I got it, don't worry about it. Something comes up, just call me."
I took Julia from the David dude, and still felt like asking something, but I kept my mouth shut for now. It's totally not my place to really ask, especially when it seems like a businessy sort of deal. But if it's not... Dude. This chick is colder than I ever thought she was.
"See ya." I headed down and got out of the hospital, taking Julia with me. "Looks like it's just you and me hanging for a little bit. You cool with that?"
I think she thinks it's weird, but she doesn't look like she's pissed about it. See? I totally knew things were cool with me and the little kid.
There is totally nothing to worry about.
"Uncle Dum Dum!"
... DUDE.
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