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yea im definatley going to bitch so get ready. I hate being a convience friend, people want to "hang out" or "talk" when it is convienet for them and if it isn't convienent or they dont see you for a while then oh well right? what the hell is that.it's all ohh i love you and shit but then nobody is around. it has got to be one of the most annoying things ever. i'd like to think that i have great friends but that is only to a certain extent.i have never wanted to go to college and leave carmel so bad in my entire life. or maybe i wish it was like middle school again when kids were actually geniune and didn't just say things that they think you want to hear.it isn't directed at any particular people but you should know weather you are a good friend or not. so please spare me the fucking i" love you cait's" and all of that shit especially when you can't back it up at all.whatever im really over it.i dunno it could just be winter i guess but everyone has been so shitty lately its unreal. if you are going to call yourself a friend then be a fucking friend not just someone who talks to you because they see you somewhere and all of a sudden want to make conversation.i guess i just feel distant from alot of people latley. blah blah blah