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I feel so... grown up.
It's kinda weird now that I think about it.
I mean kids spend their whole childhood wishing they were older...
More grown up.
So then you become the "fucked up" teenager you parents were once but claim 'time was different then' or 'you don't know how good you have it'.
Yea...
That's a load of bullshit.
It's probably the worst phase of your life.
Teenagers get no fucking respect.
Adults treat you like a child,
Yet they expect you to act like an adult.
It's a rough age.
Now it's like I have all this new freedom to experiment with and it's like...
THIS is what I've been waiting for?
Half of me is jumping for joy...
Yet the other half of me is like wallowing in self-pity.
I love the fact that I can do (pretty much) whatever I want...
It's just now I can go to jail.
Bummer.
I've decided that I am a new person.
I'm no longer the Christina everyone knows as the 'nice girl',
Well I am but I'm also more than that.
I want to be known as a respectable woman who can be successful and get what she wants.
I don't wanna be just 'nice' anymore.
I wanna be independent, wild, sexy, naughty, mature, AND nice.
I don't regret anything I've done in my life.
What's done is done.
It's in the past and I can't change what I've done to make me a better person.
I can only change what's to become of me.
No more of this played-out, high school drama queen shit.
I'm a hot, hard-working, college woman now.
And it's time I start acting like it.
I apologize to everyone I've hurt in the past
And am SOOO grateful for those brave, select few who have chosen to stay by me.
You've made me a better person just by letting me be myself.
I can NEVER be given a greater gift.
I will always remember you and you'll forever be in my heart.
Thank you.
It's kinda weird now that I think about it.
I mean kids spend their whole childhood wishing they were older...
More grown up.
So then you become the "fucked up" teenager you parents were once but claim 'time was different then' or 'you don't know how good you have it'.
Yea...
That's a load of bullshit.
It's probably the worst phase of your life.
Teenagers get no fucking respect.
Adults treat you like a child,
Yet they expect you to act like an adult.
It's a rough age.
Now it's like I have all this new freedom to experiment with and it's like...
THIS is what I've been waiting for?
Half of me is jumping for joy...
Yet the other half of me is like wallowing in self-pity.
I love the fact that I can do (pretty much) whatever I want...
It's just now I can go to jail.
Bummer.
I've decided that I am a new person.
I'm no longer the Christina everyone knows as the 'nice girl',
Well I am but I'm also more than that.
I want to be known as a respectable woman who can be successful and get what she wants.
I don't wanna be just 'nice' anymore.
I wanna be independent, wild, sexy, naughty, mature, AND nice.
I don't regret anything I've done in my life.
What's done is done.
It's in the past and I can't change what I've done to make me a better person.
I can only change what's to become of me.
No more of this played-out, high school drama queen shit.
I'm a hot, hard-working, college woman now.
And it's time I start acting like it.
I apologize to everyone I've hurt in the past
And am SOOO grateful for those brave, select few who have chosen to stay by me.
You've made me a better person just by letting me be myself.
I can NEVER be given a greater gift.
I will always remember you and you'll forever be in my heart.
Thank you.