I FUCKING HATE MY MOTHER!
I Hate My Fucking Mother... I cant Fucking Stand Her...Nothing She Says or Does Makes Any Fucking Sense... She Turns me into to probation like she doesnt want me here... and then she tells me she didnt.. I mean come on now... My Probation officer knew that Me and Joe got in a fight.. How else would he know that... No one besides my mom is gunna tell him that... I had a conversation with my mom about running... and how I wanted too... and within a half hour... My Probation officer was here giving me the whole lecture about running...I've Never run or Even tried to run before... so Obvisouly someone said something to him... I mean.. My mom does have a past of telling on people.. She is part of the reason Alex Anderson went to Jail... She talked to his probation officer...
She sits there and tells me shes not gunna go against probation... She wont go against probation... But She will go against Me... Its like She agrees with probation that I should sit in my house... By myself and not talk to or see anyone until I go to placement.. Like Its easy for me to just drop my relationship with Joe... and Im not gunna fucking do it... I dont fucking care what her or anyone fucking says... She sits there and blames all my fucking problems on my dad... and its more her fault then anyone... Shes the one that run to the court system to handle her problems... or calls the cops... And she says I run away from my problems... Maybe I do.. Becuae I dont get the fucking chance to solve one problem before she creates another one... And She doesnt just run away from her problems... She just hands them over to someone else to deal with...
She lost my brother and sister... and she says it doesnt mean that shes not gunna see them everyday... so Just because someone says I can't see Joe.. Why should that stop me from seeing him??? Shes such a fucking Hyprocrit... I cant fucking stand it anymore...
My sisters friend kept calling my sister tonight while me, my mom and my sister where at the store... Telling my sister that her mom was bitching at her and this and that... and my mom kept saying whats wrong with her mom.. Why doesnt she just leave... she can come to our house... so Its not okay for this girls mom to yell at her and nagg her and hit her... but its okay for my mom to do it... Its okay for this girl to take off and my mom hide her out... but its not okay for me to take off and one of my friends hide me... It doesnt make any fucking sense... The whole time my mom was sitting there talking about this girls mom... I kept thinkin to myself... "Yea... well Mom thats what people think of you" But I've learned its so much easier to just keep my mouth shut...
She sits there and asks me questions about Joe.. I dont understand why the fuck she cares... Im so fucking sick of her I fucking hate her... I hope I do go to placement... and After placement Im not coming home.... Im not gunna write to her... Or call Her.. Nothing... I dont want her to come visit me... I dont want anythign to do with her.. She needs to get thourugh her fucking head that this isnt all my fault... Its fucking her tooo... and She will never get that through her head.. She will never understand that it's her fault she lost her kids and her house... and Its partly her fault that Im the way I am... Not All My dad... HER! She just doesnt fucking get it..
I ask for Joe to sleep over so he can help me write my letter to the state so I can get my GED... and she doesnt even let me talk... she just says no ... Im not going against probation... but any other time she willl... She doesnt see that I do nothing with my life anymore... I just fucking sleep it away... She doesnt fucking care... as long as she doesnt have to deal with me shes happy... And When Im gone... She wont even care.. She'll just find a bunch of my "Friends" to be her new kidd.. What the fuck does she care... Im so fucking sick of it here... I really dont care if I go to placement or not... and Neither does she.. I would rather go to placement then stay here.. I DONT WANT TO BE HERE ANYMORE... I've been on fucking house arrest for almost 3 weeks... IVE DONE NOTHING.... Nothing but fucking sleep.... And she talked to her councelor... and she said I sleep becuae Im angry... I sleep becuae I wake up and theres nothing fucking better to do....
My mom acts like its easyyy to just drop everyone and everything.... when all the shit happened with my dad.. She didnt just drop him and stop talking to him.... Why the hell should I do it.... I cant fucking stand the Bitch anymore.. I dont even want to be here! Fuck It allllll
She sits there and tells me shes not gunna go against probation... She wont go against probation... But She will go against Me... Its like She agrees with probation that I should sit in my house... By myself and not talk to or see anyone until I go to placement.. Like Its easy for me to just drop my relationship with Joe... and Im not gunna fucking do it... I dont fucking care what her or anyone fucking says... She sits there and blames all my fucking problems on my dad... and its more her fault then anyone... Shes the one that run to the court system to handle her problems... or calls the cops... And she says I run away from my problems... Maybe I do.. Becuae I dont get the fucking chance to solve one problem before she creates another one... And She doesnt just run away from her problems... She just hands them over to someone else to deal with...
She lost my brother and sister... and she says it doesnt mean that shes not gunna see them everyday... so Just because someone says I can't see Joe.. Why should that stop me from seeing him??? Shes such a fucking Hyprocrit... I cant fucking stand it anymore...
My sisters friend kept calling my sister tonight while me, my mom and my sister where at the store... Telling my sister that her mom was bitching at her and this and that... and my mom kept saying whats wrong with her mom.. Why doesnt she just leave... she can come to our house... so Its not okay for this girls mom to yell at her and nagg her and hit her... but its okay for my mom to do it... Its okay for this girl to take off and my mom hide her out... but its not okay for me to take off and one of my friends hide me... It doesnt make any fucking sense... The whole time my mom was sitting there talking about this girls mom... I kept thinkin to myself... "Yea... well Mom thats what people think of you" But I've learned its so much easier to just keep my mouth shut...
She sits there and asks me questions about Joe.. I dont understand why the fuck she cares... Im so fucking sick of her I fucking hate her... I hope I do go to placement... and After placement Im not coming home.... Im not gunna write to her... Or call Her.. Nothing... I dont want her to come visit me... I dont want anythign to do with her.. She needs to get thourugh her fucking head that this isnt all my fault... Its fucking her tooo... and She will never get that through her head.. She will never understand that it's her fault she lost her kids and her house... and Its partly her fault that Im the way I am... Not All My dad... HER! She just doesnt fucking get it..
I ask for Joe to sleep over so he can help me write my letter to the state so I can get my GED... and she doesnt even let me talk... she just says no ... Im not going against probation... but any other time she willl... She doesnt see that I do nothing with my life anymore... I just fucking sleep it away... She doesnt fucking care... as long as she doesnt have to deal with me shes happy... And When Im gone... She wont even care.. She'll just find a bunch of my "Friends" to be her new kidd.. What the fuck does she care... Im so fucking sick of it here... I really dont care if I go to placement or not... and Neither does she.. I would rather go to placement then stay here.. I DONT WANT TO BE HERE ANYMORE... I've been on fucking house arrest for almost 3 weeks... IVE DONE NOTHING.... Nothing but fucking sleep.... And she talked to her councelor... and she said I sleep becuae Im angry... I sleep becuae I wake up and theres nothing fucking better to do....
My mom acts like its easyyy to just drop everyone and everything.... when all the shit happened with my dad.. She didnt just drop him and stop talking to him.... Why the hell should I do it.... I cant fucking stand the Bitch anymore.. I dont even want to be here! Fuck It allllll