Wishing all the best for you And now I will say goodbye

[_xonikkiox_]

well lets see. not only am i over due but i keep having false labor which fucking BITES. i want these things OUT OF ME. im sick of the pain. but the doctor said if they dont come soon he'll have to induce labor so yeah. i dont know but i've been put on bed rest till they come. boy their putting me through some hell. im so glad i get pain meds when i finally have these watermellons in me. haha i sound so mean but it hurts dude. but yeah im fine and stuff. and ike has been great to me since all this started i couldn't ask for a better man right now. but yeah. dude. that thing about Ave killed me. i miss her. i know i wasn't on the best terms with her in the last months of her life but i had grown to love and adore that girl. i still cant believe shes gone. this family has just been through so much and has lost so much in such a little space its like everytime a new person in born a person has to be taken away and i hate it. it makes me sad. tay has been put alot in a sort time. i can only hope the twins birth will help him gain his way and his faith back in life because i think one more blow and hes gone. i don't know what to do with him anymore he doesn't really talk to me anymore and it makes me sad. i hate how hes going through all this and i cant even help him. i want to help him but even when i try he pushes me away. its sad. i just wished he turn to me but i can see why he doesnt i think. but iwant him to know im always here for him if he wants a shoulder to lean on or anything. but yeah. im happy for Zac he finally got his baby he wanted to nat so a congrats goes out to them on their growing bundle of joy. and KAte. how are you dear? i havent seen you in awhile you need to come see me! i miss you. are you showing yet? do you have any names. i love you! i miss your friendship. all i have now a days is Ike not that im complaining but it'd be good to see some new faces around here im starting to forget what you all look like. so come see me! THAT MEANS YOU TOO TAY! *sigh* but i guess thats all i have to say. so goodbye my loves.
<3
Nikki