it got worse ...
i found out alot of stuff yesterday .... long story short though ... my mother and father have been doing crack and coke for the last few months ( though my dad did quit)...
that explains my mothers sudden mood swings .....
on top of that ... my father is leaving ... so he says ...
there goes all my sanity ....
i've been smoking up and drinking almost every night now, just to forget.
i feel so bad about that ...
really the only thing i got going for me is i'ma graduate, and the whole emily thing. I've had a crush on her forever, and now i get to try my luck. i think she thinks i'm just a corny lil dumbass, but oh well .. i hope not ... even though i'm sure she does ..
(i feel like such a fuckin emo kid ... shoot me)
that explains my mothers sudden mood swings .....
on top of that ... my father is leaving ... so he says ...
there goes all my sanity ....
i've been smoking up and drinking almost every night now, just to forget.
i feel so bad about that ...
really the only thing i got going for me is i'ma graduate, and the whole emily thing. I've had a crush on her forever, and now i get to try my luck. i think she thinks i'm just a corny lil dumbass, but oh well .. i hope not ... even though i'm sure she does ..
(i feel like such a fuckin emo kid ... shoot me)