Sometimes you have to cry
Yesterday: Warped Tour '04..best concert of the entire summer
Yesterday: Spent my day at the hospital
So it starts as an ordinary day, I was gunna go to warped I was just being my bitchy dont care about anything self. So me and my mom get in this huge fight and i start cutting, but the knife was dull...so I just got mad and I slammed a box of hair stuff against the wall...and this razor fell out so i slit my wrists and this time it was really bad so there was blood all over and i went downstairs to get a rag and i left the razor on the table by accident and she found it and she was like why is this here and i was like oo no reason and i grabbed it and she twisted my arm and saw like the cuts and everything and she didnt think they were that bad until she saw the blood so i went upstairs and then she was like lets go get your things and then she goes were going to the hospital so we got there waited 2 hours and then we saw all these doctors and therapists and it was scary as shit and so there gunna call me in three days to see if i have to be like admitted there...my mom even cried, and Ive only seen her cry like twice my whole entire life...I dont think Ive ever cried so hard. Al the girls I saw were like my age nd they had really messy hair and they looked like they had been beaten alot, and one girl had slit wrists and they were wearing these awful hospital clothes and I just never wanna go there again. Im still kinda freaked, and my dad made me tell him what happened. I hate myself
I truly dont deserve to live.
xxxxx