Anything really.
Okay today as usual I didn't do anything really exciting. I woke up at 10:30 and went to church with the family...as usual. But don't have much say in that anyways now do I. Oke' So'...lol. I had a lot of time to think today and I started thinking on why people get so afraid to do things. Even the things they really want to do they don't do them because for some reason they are afraid to. I mean everyone does it. Idk, to me I think I do it more than others I just want to know why we all do it and how do we get to the point of not going through on what we really want to do. Is it only fear that holds us back cuz that kind of fear is irrelevant...it doesn't really have any meaning. See Idk how I got thinking any of this...but it hit me. Why be afraid...we only live life once and if we want to do something that is fun and exciting and can be really amazing but we don't just because of that fear then we could be missing out on so many fun times in our life. For example you like someone...and you want to know if they like you as well or you want to go out with someone. You want to ask them you just don't because of the fear of rejection. But what if they say yes...you would never know cuz you were to afraid to ask. BUT if they said no it wouldn't matter cuz that fear of asking is gone you got past that point...now all you feel is like an idiot and very vulnerable but that feeling goes away and you move on and...Idk it builds character believe it or not.So anyways I was thinking for a day or half a day or maybe try it for a week..let people know what you really want and what you really are thinking and what you really mean instead of giving them the "normal half truth" but just don't blurt it out...only give them that information if they ask you don't want to be overbearing that's just annoying. I'm gonna try it next time I hang out with my friends...that is if I get to go anywhere. You know I never go anywhere I'm always at home and on this journal...if you noticed there is about 2-3 entries a day...is that normal. I don't think it is but Oh well I like to journal I guess. You know what would be nice to do...hang out with JR...just cuz he's an amazing person...AND he is a lot of fun and very funny...and he makes me really happy.BUT he doesn't know that....I don't think. LOL OH WELL ...I guess that's part of the excitement. He'll find out eventually. School starts in about 8 days...Wooo HOO...JEEZE I HATE SCHOOL !!! Maybe this year will be different. At least I'll be going with all my friends...lol. OH!!! I signed up for the drama and arts again so this should definitely be a great year. I still hate school though and I doubt that will ever change. HEHE.