He's making you scream with his hands on your hips.
I thought everything was getting better for me, but now, I just want to crash.
Crash into a fucking hole and die.
I feel as if I can't do anything. I can't keep my friends happy, I can't keep my family happy, I can't keep myself happy, I can't save some fucking money to go out on the weekends, I can't get a fucking boy to hang out with me for a couple hours, I can't hang out with my friends for a period of time because they all get sick of me, I can't sleep because I'm too mad at myself, I can't clean my room because I never finish what I start, I can't eat because I hate the way I look right now, I can't go for a walk because I'm a fucking lazy piece of shit, and I sure as hell can't fake a smile anymore.
I know I whine a lot. But seriously. I'm falling apart.
I want to cry so bad.
& I can't smile. & I'm not happy.
I tried to look so nice for him tonight. Because we had a date arranged, and he ditched me. Suprise, suprise.
I need a girls night, and all my girls are gone away, or with their boyfriends, or whatever else.
I need someone here with me tonight.