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You know. I've come to a few conclusions this past week. One being that my mom and dad will always be right. The second being that I will always learn my lessons the hard way. And the third being that I am the dumbest mother fucker when it comes to showing my "sensative" side to people. It always seems that I pick the wrong people to show my sensative side to. The one I chose most recently, really fucked me over. I thought I knew her and who she was, but really our friendship was supported by lies. Everything sounded good, she told me what I wanted to hear and I thought it was sincere. What a crock of shit that turned out to be. I dont want to be friends with someone who's not gonna be upfront and honest with me. I never felt so strong for someone before, but it's amazing how those feelings can disappear that quick when you finally realize that you were being fucked over. Now, if she wants to come clean and tell me the truth, I might be able to continue a friendship. I know there are lies being told, and if she denies that, I'm done. I'm not gonna leave myself susceptable to being hurt any more than I already have in this situation. As far as I'm concerned, I'm done trying to make an effort. I dont want to be friends with someone who's gonna lie to me. I'll be honest though, once someone takes advantage of my trust, it's very hard to get that back. Wow...that's been building up for a while and it feels fuckin great to finally let that go.

"People don't know 'bout the things I say I do, they dont understand the shit that I've been through."

"...And when you're walls come tumbling down, I would've always been around."