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I'm feeling better now. I had a nearly hour long conversation with Sarah last night, and after I talked I realized why I was so upset this weekend. I haven't had the best of luck in the past with having an interest in someone, and when nothing works out, maintaining a friendship with them. When everything went down this weekend, I was having flashbacks of friendships I've lost in the past because of my own personal feelings getting in the way and making things ackward. I was petrified things would turn out like that between me and Sarah. I thought for sure things would be weird and neither of us would want to make an effort to even pursue a friendship. I also realized I was inadvertantly doing what I told her I didn't want to do. I was being selfish. She saw things how they would be, I saw things in more of a fantasy. I had visions of going to see her every month for a few days at a time and everything would be fine. Now there's a far-fetched idea for ya...like I would ever be able to afford that. She made the right decision and set me straight. She did what I hope every real friend would do. I might not have liked what happened at first, but she made me look at things realistically. She did what she had to so she wouldn't be in position I was in this weekend. This weekend let yet another one of her great qualities shine through...

In other news...

Daddy broke his leg Saturday night. The dumbass tried to kick start the same motorcycle that injured one of his friends just minutes before. He hyper-extended his knee and broke his Tibial plate in his knee and crushed all the cartilage behind his knee cap. Way to go daddy-o! This makes 2 hospital visits in the past two months, and I think you're gonna have another one here real soon to fix that cartilage.