nostalgia always made people feel sick in the end.
lately i've been feeling down because i feel like i have no one. they say they're still cool with you but you know the truth. and honestly its alright. no hate on this side of the fence. but for awhile there was a sense of isolation. a fear of conspiracy. and the repetitive voice inside my head saying, "its all my fault." &maybe it is &maybe it isnt but sitting here and feeling sad while everyone is going about their lives while i'm still stuck wondering, "what the fuck really happened senior year?" doesnt seem to really be helping. so ive come to the conclusion that the past really is the past and if the rest of the world is SO over it, then i should be too.
i know now that there's a whole other world out there and a bunch of other living breathing human beings with the potential of being good friends with and i can no longer sit still &ignore that simply because I MISS YOU.