i dont know what to do..

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ive been thinking about college lately. i feel so left out now that i know everybody's in school making something of themselves. one of the reasons why i want to go to beauty was because i figured it would be easier &there wouldnt be a way for me to fail. how could i slack off when all i need to focus on is making someone beautiful? i dont need to worry about turning in essays, reports, projects.. &i dont need to sit in those dull &tedious classes with a bunch of people who think their badass just cause their in college. but now that im thinking of it.. i want to be in those classes. i want to learn again &actually exercise my brain instead of damaging it with chemicals from a salon..

i dont know. i want to have a bright future ahead of me.. but when i look back on the way i treated highschool.. i slacked off &just simply couldnt give a shit. imagine if i repeat that mistake in a place where i have to pay only to fail..

spring semester isnt too far away.. i need to decide. beauty school? or college?

i really dont think i can do it..