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Just as if things couldnt get any shittier, yesterday had to beat it all. I get a phone call from my grandma and she tells me that my Aunt Ann (her brothers wife) shot herself. But, she didnt die so now she's in the hospital and she's paralyzed from the boobs down and she's basically a vegetable. Margie being the great friend she is says " Let's go to Cheraw". Just feeling the atmosphere when I entered the county made me feel so much better. I couldnt go see my parents bc they would flip a lid if they knew i was in Cheraw at 10 pm w/ intention of going back to Rock Hill so we visited Margies mom instead. Margie,Jimmy, and I then decided to go to sonic for some grub...Margie's car breaks. Go figure. We have to call Margies mom and we switch out cars and then come back to Cheraw. WTF? is my life just always gonna be shitty? Why do all the ones I love feel the need to kill themselves? Her daughter Pam is the closest cousin I have, we are like sisters..I'm so scared for her. I feel horrible and want to cry but I hold it back, crying never does me any good.