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i can hear "i'm just a girl who can't say no" from upstairs. god, i remember the early days of theatre orientation when i would get a project and attempt to go hog wild with it and then realize that i was so self-conscious that i would be the most boisterous person on earth in my bedroom and i would be so demure on stage that nobody would give a fuck.
i've changed so much since freshman year.
i was thinking about it the other day. i literally sat by myself all during les mis and wizard of oz. i talked to matt and aidan and zach. that was it. i wouldn't talk to anyone backstage for fear that i would say something wrong or just sound like a little freshman idiot. i was never really encouraged to talk to upperclassmen. as a result, none of my friends have graduated yet. all of my friends are a grade above me or a grade below me, with a few hovering as juniors with me.
i don't miss the freshman at all, though.
i abandoned jeff at the school today. god, i felt so bad. i ran around for 10 minutes trying to find a ride for him since i called my house and no one answered and casey offered me a ride home. i finally got him a ride and then i couldn't find him anywhere. i know he probably got home ok, but he's going to be pissed. the way that the whole situation went down made it seem like i was ditching him for a guy, which really wasn't true. he just offered me a ride and i didn't have one, and i felt like shit taking it, but i really needed to get home.
i'm just covering my own ass here, mostly, but it really is the truth. so whatever.
i took pictures for the statesman today of rehearsals, but got next to none of my friends. aidan, you and other assorted thespians should be on the lookout, because tomorrow is major camera day. i'm going to bring the regular camera during tech week and during the shows for pictures for my actual scrapbook.
my stepmom's laugh is really annoying. the end.
i've changed so much since freshman year.
i was thinking about it the other day. i literally sat by myself all during les mis and wizard of oz. i talked to matt and aidan and zach. that was it. i wouldn't talk to anyone backstage for fear that i would say something wrong or just sound like a little freshman idiot. i was never really encouraged to talk to upperclassmen. as a result, none of my friends have graduated yet. all of my friends are a grade above me or a grade below me, with a few hovering as juniors with me.
i don't miss the freshman at all, though.
i abandoned jeff at the school today. god, i felt so bad. i ran around for 10 minutes trying to find a ride for him since i called my house and no one answered and casey offered me a ride home. i finally got him a ride and then i couldn't find him anywhere. i know he probably got home ok, but he's going to be pissed. the way that the whole situation went down made it seem like i was ditching him for a guy, which really wasn't true. he just offered me a ride and i didn't have one, and i felt like shit taking it, but i really needed to get home.
i'm just covering my own ass here, mostly, but it really is the truth. so whatever.
i took pictures for the statesman today of rehearsals, but got next to none of my friends. aidan, you and other assorted thespians should be on the lookout, because tomorrow is major camera day. i'm going to bring the regular camera during tech week and during the shows for pictures for my actual scrapbook.
my stepmom's laugh is really annoying. the end.