Tony, nothing you say could offend me by now, duh. Oh and I know I fall way too hard way too fast...thing is EVERYONE knows that, and boy oh boy, am I sure to let them know before I let them get involved with me in the first place. But, like I said in the entry, when it came to us breaking up, it wasn't like I didn't see it comming. It was obvious you hated me and didn't want to be with me. It was pretty much over before it was over, ya know? I mean, the timing of it was the worst time possible, and I hated you for a while, but then I realized, what was the point being with somone i didn't make happy and somone who didn't want to make me happy. I guess what I don't get is why do people even bother to get into a relationship if they don't plan on having that person in the future? You don't become somones signifagant other in hopes that you make a good friend. With my relationship with Ryan was very fast paced, and we both fell hard and quick, but he said he liked it, liked that we were falling fast, that he wanted to...you know me...how gung-ho I am about wanting a boyfriend, wanting and needing love...and he was the mirror image of me, wanting the same exact things I did. He even told me he was scared I'd leave HIM after a few months...come on now, who, besides me, is constantly worried about somone leaving them? Well, for a guy at least. And unlike our relationship, this one came out of nowhere. And believe me, I could love more then anything to not be so stressed and co-dependent, and I am learning to try my hardest to enjoy life single. I actually have come a long way. Sorry this was so long, guess I needed to ramble, plus it feels good to be able to talk to you. Hate to say it, bit I kind of miss ya. Anyways, goodnight, you stop stressing about your new love intrest as well buck-o!
I guess what I don't get is why do people even bother to get into a relationship if they don't plan on having that person in the future? You don't become somones signifagant other in hopes that you make a good friend. With my relationship with Ryan was very fast paced, and we both fell hard and quick, but he said he liked it, liked that we were falling fast, that he wanted to...you know me...how gung-ho I am about wanting a boyfriend, wanting and needing love...and he was the mirror image of me, wanting the same exact things I did. He even told me he was scared I'd leave HIM after a few months...come on now, who, besides me, is constantly worried about somone leaving them? Well, for a guy at least. And unlike our relationship, this one came out of nowhere.
And believe me, I could love more then anything to not be so stressed and co-dependent, and I am learning to try my hardest to enjoy life single. I actually have come a long way.
Sorry this was so long, guess I needed to ramble, plus it feels good to be able to talk to you. Hate to say it, bit I kind of miss ya.
Anyways, goodnight, you stop stressing about your new love intrest as well buck-o!
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