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If you have ever wondered why I say that ignorance is sad, or that I cannot stand people -
The screen name has been taken out to avoid any "drama." And, uh, Pegahsus is me on my AOL screen name.
.....: how is "eating" not easy
.....: just eat good foods..and dont worry u wont GAIN any weight
Pegahsus: eh
.....: yea im rite
Pegahsus: i dunno
.....: wat dont u know?
.....: its not that complicated...
Pegahsus: yea, it is.
.....: that kind of stuff pisses me off
Pegahsus: why?
.....: cuz either people do it for attention or just being stupid..becuz obviously ur skinny already so why would u keep fuckin starving urself? i dont get it
Pegahsus: its not just for those reasons.
.....: then why krista..
Pegahsus: i dont eat because i dont feel like i deserve it. its a way of dealing with problems and pressure
.....: wat? thats the dumbest shit i heard
.....: y dont u SMOKE or DRINK...u dont starve urself?
Pegahsus: whatever. i'm not going to talk about this with you.
.....: y
.....: cuz im rite?
Pegahsus: no, you're not.you just wont understand. and thats sad.
.....: its sad that i think eatin is a part of a daily routine? and keepin someone healthy? i THINK i understand
Pegahsus: no, you dont understand that it's a difficult thing to get over, that people do it for many reasons, that its really destructive and theres alot that goes on with it.
.....: yea like u ruin ur body and shit..and u should start eating
Pegahsus: i know that eating is a normal part of every dy life.
.....: ur just makin people feel bad for u..becuz there are ALOT of different ways to handle ur "problems" and ANYONE knows that
Pegahsus: the physical task of eating isn't all that there is to it. alot of it is all of the psychological crap.
Pegahsus: i'm not trying to make anyone feel bad for me at all. if i wanted attention, i wouldnt do it in a way that fucks up my body and throws me in hospitals
Pegahsus: this is just the way i ended up dealing with mine.
.....: how is there "psycholigcal" way of "EATING"
Pegahsus: because theres a thought process behind it.
.....: omg i cant believe u think this way
Pegahsus: go read a fucking book on it or something sometime, because i'm not going to sit here and defend myself about this
.....: well u should becuz everyone thinks...nevermind dude
Pegahsus: it's sad that you don't see that it's a serious problem, not just a matter of eating.
.....: i try to help u all the time and u just keep on doin the same shit
Pegahsus: what? what does everyone think? everyone that doesn't know me?
Pegahsus: no one can help me. ultimately, i have to help myself.
Pegahsus: and i'm working on that right now.
.....: yea ok krista...u go to HIGH SCHOOL..alot of people know you
.....: u have been workin on it FOREVER
Pegahsus: it's something difficult
.....: and u wanting to be "100 pounds" is a SERIOUS problem
Pegahsus: its taken me years to get as bad as i am and it will take a long time to get better
.....: yea well thats ur fault of lettin urself get this bad...
Pegahsus: yea, people see me around but they dont actually KNOW me. and i weigh less thatn 100 pounds, and i'm aware that its a problem.
Pegahsus: i know that it's my fault - which is why i don't want anyone to help me.
.....: ur life isnt THAT bad that u had to "STARVE" urself to make ur problems better?
Pegahsus: you just don't get it.
.....: ok krista then why do u keep doin this then??
Pegahsus: like i said, read a fucking book on it or something
.....: obviously ur puttin ur mom through ALOT OF SHIT w/u doint his
Pegahsus: it's just a routine now. it just is something to keep me occupied. its just... something i do.
.....: yea im not gonna read a book on a problem i DONT HAVE!! sorrie...
Pegahsus: yeah, well my mom put me through alot of shit to get me to this point.
..... not eatin? keeps u occupied? that didnt make ANY sense
..... watever she tries so hard..
Pegahsus: always being concerned about weight, and then making comments about my weight in 7th grade
Pegahsus: you wouldnt fucking know.
..... oh i wouldnt?
Pegahsus: not eating keeps me occuppied in my head because im constantly thinking about other things.
Pegahsus: no, because you dont live with me. she acts like a completely different person around other people. sure, she may try now - but not when i was growing up.
..... considerin my mom is BEST FRIENDS w/her..and i use to live across the street from her..i have a LITTLE of a background of her..she isnt perfect, but hey neither is my mom or ANY other..u should give her credit..and dont blame YOUR problems on HER
Pegahsus: i'm not blaming them on her. i know that alot of it is myself, but she has contributed to them and i will not deny it.
Pegahsus: it was up to me to decide to deal with emotions in a negative way - however, being around her directed me more towards having issues with weight .. which is where i have ended up taking out my frustration.
..... watever..i just think..nevermind
Pegahsus: no, tell me.
..... no
Pegahsus: fine then, whatever.
..... yea
Pegahsus: i'm sorry if you cannot see my side of things on this issue.
..... no i dont agree with u and i know other people with this so...
Pegahsus: there's a difference between not agreeing and just not listening to the other side of an issue.
..... im listenin and i ALWAYS do krista...
Pegahsus: well, not everyone is the same and, therefor, not everyone is going to do certain things for the same reason
Pegahsus: i know that you listen, but like - it seems like you're not even trying to understand where i'm coming from with this.
..... becuz krista...
..... hold on
Pegahsus: you can think it's all bullshit all you want, but this is VERY real to me.
..... well then EAT
..... is away at 9:34 PM
The screen name has been taken out to avoid any "drama." And, uh, Pegahsus is me on my AOL screen name.
.....: how is "eating" not easy
.....: just eat good foods..and dont worry u wont GAIN any weight
Pegahsus: eh
.....: yea im rite
Pegahsus: i dunno
.....: wat dont u know?
.....: its not that complicated...
Pegahsus: yea, it is.
.....: that kind of stuff pisses me off
Pegahsus: why?
.....: cuz either people do it for attention or just being stupid..becuz obviously ur skinny already so why would u keep fuckin starving urself? i dont get it
Pegahsus: its not just for those reasons.
.....: then why krista..
Pegahsus: i dont eat because i dont feel like i deserve it. its a way of dealing with problems and pressure
.....: wat? thats the dumbest shit i heard
.....: y dont u SMOKE or DRINK...u dont starve urself?
Pegahsus: whatever. i'm not going to talk about this with you.
.....: y
.....: cuz im rite?
Pegahsus: no, you're not.you just wont understand. and thats sad.
.....: its sad that i think eatin is a part of a daily routine? and keepin someone healthy? i THINK i understand
Pegahsus: no, you dont understand that it's a difficult thing to get over, that people do it for many reasons, that its really destructive and theres alot that goes on with it.
.....: yea like u ruin ur body and shit..and u should start eating
Pegahsus: i know that eating is a normal part of every dy life.
.....: ur just makin people feel bad for u..becuz there are ALOT of different ways to handle ur "problems" and ANYONE knows that
Pegahsus: the physical task of eating isn't all that there is to it. alot of it is all of the psychological crap.
Pegahsus: i'm not trying to make anyone feel bad for me at all. if i wanted attention, i wouldnt do it in a way that fucks up my body and throws me in hospitals
Pegahsus: this is just the way i ended up dealing with mine.
.....: how is there "psycholigcal" way of "EATING"
Pegahsus: because theres a thought process behind it.
.....: omg i cant believe u think this way
Pegahsus: go read a fucking book on it or something sometime, because i'm not going to sit here and defend myself about this
.....: well u should becuz everyone thinks...nevermind dude
Pegahsus: it's sad that you don't see that it's a serious problem, not just a matter of eating.
.....: i try to help u all the time and u just keep on doin the same shit
Pegahsus: what? what does everyone think? everyone that doesn't know me?
Pegahsus: no one can help me. ultimately, i have to help myself.
Pegahsus: and i'm working on that right now.
.....: yea ok krista...u go to HIGH SCHOOL..alot of people know you
.....: u have been workin on it FOREVER
Pegahsus: it's something difficult
.....: and u wanting to be "100 pounds" is a SERIOUS problem
Pegahsus: its taken me years to get as bad as i am and it will take a long time to get better
.....: yea well thats ur fault of lettin urself get this bad...
Pegahsus: yea, people see me around but they dont actually KNOW me. and i weigh less thatn 100 pounds, and i'm aware that its a problem.
Pegahsus: i know that it's my fault - which is why i don't want anyone to help me.
.....: ur life isnt THAT bad that u had to "STARVE" urself to make ur problems better?
Pegahsus: you just don't get it.
.....: ok krista then why do u keep doin this then??
Pegahsus: like i said, read a fucking book on it or something
.....: obviously ur puttin ur mom through ALOT OF SHIT w/u doint his
Pegahsus: it's just a routine now. it just is something to keep me occupied. its just... something i do.
.....: yea im not gonna read a book on a problem i DONT HAVE!! sorrie...
Pegahsus: yeah, well my mom put me through alot of shit to get me to this point.
..... not eatin? keeps u occupied? that didnt make ANY sense
..... watever she tries so hard..
Pegahsus: always being concerned about weight, and then making comments about my weight in 7th grade
Pegahsus: you wouldnt fucking know.
..... oh i wouldnt?
Pegahsus: not eating keeps me occuppied in my head because im constantly thinking about other things.
Pegahsus: no, because you dont live with me. she acts like a completely different person around other people. sure, she may try now - but not when i was growing up.
..... considerin my mom is BEST FRIENDS w/her..and i use to live across the street from her..i have a LITTLE of a background of her..she isnt perfect, but hey neither is my mom or ANY other..u should give her credit..and dont blame YOUR problems on HER
Pegahsus: i'm not blaming them on her. i know that alot of it is myself, but she has contributed to them and i will not deny it.
Pegahsus: it was up to me to decide to deal with emotions in a negative way - however, being around her directed me more towards having issues with weight .. which is where i have ended up taking out my frustration.
..... watever..i just think..nevermind
Pegahsus: no, tell me.
..... no
Pegahsus: fine then, whatever.
..... yea
Pegahsus: i'm sorry if you cannot see my side of things on this issue.
..... no i dont agree with u and i know other people with this so...
Pegahsus: there's a difference between not agreeing and just not listening to the other side of an issue.
..... im listenin and i ALWAYS do krista...
Pegahsus: well, not everyone is the same and, therefor, not everyone is going to do certain things for the same reason
Pegahsus: i know that you listen, but like - it seems like you're not even trying to understand where i'm coming from with this.
..... becuz krista...
..... hold on
Pegahsus: you can think it's all bullshit all you want, but this is VERY real to me.
..... well then EAT
..... is away at 9:34 PM