another day
it's either eatching keen eddie with my mom, or finally finding time to update this thing and catch up with my online social life, which seems to only alot it's self at this odd hours of the night. so alas, i am watching the cosby show with my sister, she was in the den first and i keep wishing for that lap top, but the blue fairy isn't looking upon me favorly these days. and if you couldn't tell, i am still in a horrible mood.
i just came from church, and i am reading a good book, "the purpose driven life" so i don't want to bash any body. but it seems that the world has come to a consesise in that it wants to suck. my family is letting me down, i'm feel ostriszed in placed i should feel safe, and i never no if what i am going to do will offend some one or not. i can't please every one all the time. so i guess this is an appology to all whom i have wronged. and for being angry at every one who has wronged me. i don't know what i am so upset about. maybe i am just a sensitive person by nature. i take that back, i know that i am. maybe i'm going about life all the wrong way. but i am doing it the best that i know how. and i am trying so hard to build a personal realtionship with god. call me crazy, but i'm so tired of trying with evil and ungratful people in this world. especailly my family. your supposed to be able to count on them, now i know i can't. ahhhhh give me some direction, some advice, i'm sick of being hurt by carless people all the time.
in other news, yeah it's spring break. today my family and i took an unnessacery roda trip to some christmas store by toledo. it didn't turn out the way my mom planned and she was really bummed, so i kinda pretended i had a lot of fun. she needs some positive reinforment. this past month has seemed to be her emotional nightmear. yesterday, we all went bowling as a family. the day before, we did nothing, i don't think. but it's been relaxing so far. less than warm...but relaxing. oh and i love andy. any way, i feel there is nothing left to say. i'll talk to you kids all later
i just came from church, and i am reading a good book, "the purpose driven life" so i don't want to bash any body. but it seems that the world has come to a consesise in that it wants to suck. my family is letting me down, i'm feel ostriszed in placed i should feel safe, and i never no if what i am going to do will offend some one or not. i can't please every one all the time. so i guess this is an appology to all whom i have wronged. and for being angry at every one who has wronged me. i don't know what i am so upset about. maybe i am just a sensitive person by nature. i take that back, i know that i am. maybe i'm going about life all the wrong way. but i am doing it the best that i know how. and i am trying so hard to build a personal realtionship with god. call me crazy, but i'm so tired of trying with evil and ungratful people in this world. especailly my family. your supposed to be able to count on them, now i know i can't. ahhhhh give me some direction, some advice, i'm sick of being hurt by carless people all the time.
in other news, yeah it's spring break. today my family and i took an unnessacery roda trip to some christmas store by toledo. it didn't turn out the way my mom planned and she was really bummed, so i kinda pretended i had a lot of fun. she needs some positive reinforment. this past month has seemed to be her emotional nightmear. yesterday, we all went bowling as a family. the day before, we did nothing, i don't think. but it's been relaxing so far. less than warm...but relaxing. oh and i love andy. any way, i feel there is nothing left to say. i'll talk to you kids all later