what's a girl to do??
So, yet again can't sleep.
I've done a lot of thinking this weekend and I've come to some conclusions, but most of this kind of fell into place.
The whole co-requisite thing is my responsibility to fulfill, according to school documents anyway, so I'm going to have to enroll in arc321 whether i want to or not. If i leave the design strand and switch to history, theory, criticism then i may forfeit many career options if i end up decided not to pursue project management. So I'm going to join that class tomorrow. Problem is that means I'll be taking 5.5 courses this semester which is insane with two of them being studio classes. I'm going o have to drop one class and the only one that can be is history of advertising. i really wanna stay in that class but at this point i can just really hope that the same prof is teaching next year because he's awesome. i also have to make sure that i can return all those textbooks that i had to buy for that class. if i drop it then that'll relieve a lot of reading stress off my head. Alessia won't be too impressed with this decision but fuck, she's gone next year anyway and i have another class with her on tuesdays. the other upside is that now i won't have class wednesdays AND thursdays which means more time to prepare for projects and essays. Mondays will officially be reading nights then the rest of the week is devoted purely to architecture. This seems like the best course of action. I'm still gonna be wanting to rip my hair out for the next 13 weeks but again it's only 13 weeks....12 now actually...see! the time is already passing by so quickly.
I finally met my group for monday's studio class. we have a presentation due tomorrow and we spent a solid 7 hours working on it today. i swear my brain has never hurt so much from thinking before. i'm just glad that i was able to show them that i have opinions and im not just mooching off of their hard work. Sarah even said that she couldn't imagine us getting through todays process without me, which was very unexpected flattery. it definitely made me feel good that's for sure because i actually made a really huge effort today...and i called in sick for work to do it too so it was worth it. i still hate presentations though, i know my brain is gonna shut off and i'll have nothing to say when i'm standing up there but whatever. as long as i speak a little.
i need this insomnia to go away though, it's already begun and it's not even because of assignments yet. I still have so many things to get settled....i gotta set up my computer with windows and get all the programs i need...i gotta set up my printer to both my pc and mac...i gotta catch up on all my readings already....i gotta find a partner/group for my new friday studio and get started on that...i gotta start thinking about this home depot product essay for yet another architecture course...and i need to organize my drafting space so that it's actuall workable. ideally i would have liked to move all my materials in the spare room in my house but it's overrun with crap, and all last year i had that desk sitting outside my brother's room and i'd be drafting all night in my upstairs hallway. i need my little tucked away space where i don't have to hear anyone in my house bitching about the light being on or me being up late. from the looks of it i'll probably be dealing with it for this year too. oh yes, laundry needs to be done as well. what's a girl to do?
above everything else i won't get to see my boyfriend much at all this semester. now going without seeing him for like 2 days is weird enough as it is, but i'm talking like over a week, week and a half even. at least he's supportive and understands how stressed out i am during school. he witnessed it firsthand last year when he was helping me with my projects. but still. this summer was our summer, i saw him pretty much every day, somehow we're still not sick of each other - not even close - so that's a feat in its own right.
and fellowship of the ring is gonna have to wait. i've read over 200 pages over the course of a few days taking it with me on the bus and subway so i'm pretty happy with myself. i accomplished reading 2 books this summer, i wanted to do 3 but 2 is better than none.
all these fuck ups haven't drained my motivation yet so hopefully, hopefully, things will start looking up. after tomorrow night i'll feel much better. doing things any other way would just be shortchanging myself.
i think i'm actually getting sleepy.
peace out
I've done a lot of thinking this weekend and I've come to some conclusions, but most of this kind of fell into place.
The whole co-requisite thing is my responsibility to fulfill, according to school documents anyway, so I'm going to have to enroll in arc321 whether i want to or not. If i leave the design strand and switch to history, theory, criticism then i may forfeit many career options if i end up decided not to pursue project management. So I'm going to join that class tomorrow. Problem is that means I'll be taking 5.5 courses this semester which is insane with two of them being studio classes. I'm going o have to drop one class and the only one that can be is history of advertising. i really wanna stay in that class but at this point i can just really hope that the same prof is teaching next year because he's awesome. i also have to make sure that i can return all those textbooks that i had to buy for that class. if i drop it then that'll relieve a lot of reading stress off my head. Alessia won't be too impressed with this decision but fuck, she's gone next year anyway and i have another class with her on tuesdays. the other upside is that now i won't have class wednesdays AND thursdays which means more time to prepare for projects and essays. Mondays will officially be reading nights then the rest of the week is devoted purely to architecture. This seems like the best course of action. I'm still gonna be wanting to rip my hair out for the next 13 weeks but again it's only 13 weeks....12 now actually...see! the time is already passing by so quickly.
I finally met my group for monday's studio class. we have a presentation due tomorrow and we spent a solid 7 hours working on it today. i swear my brain has never hurt so much from thinking before. i'm just glad that i was able to show them that i have opinions and im not just mooching off of their hard work. Sarah even said that she couldn't imagine us getting through todays process without me, which was very unexpected flattery. it definitely made me feel good that's for sure because i actually made a really huge effort today...and i called in sick for work to do it too so it was worth it. i still hate presentations though, i know my brain is gonna shut off and i'll have nothing to say when i'm standing up there but whatever. as long as i speak a little.
i need this insomnia to go away though, it's already begun and it's not even because of assignments yet. I still have so many things to get settled....i gotta set up my computer with windows and get all the programs i need...i gotta set up my printer to both my pc and mac...i gotta catch up on all my readings already....i gotta find a partner/group for my new friday studio and get started on that...i gotta start thinking about this home depot product essay for yet another architecture course...and i need to organize my drafting space so that it's actuall workable. ideally i would have liked to move all my materials in the spare room in my house but it's overrun with crap, and all last year i had that desk sitting outside my brother's room and i'd be drafting all night in my upstairs hallway. i need my little tucked away space where i don't have to hear anyone in my house bitching about the light being on or me being up late. from the looks of it i'll probably be dealing with it for this year too. oh yes, laundry needs to be done as well. what's a girl to do?
above everything else i won't get to see my boyfriend much at all this semester. now going without seeing him for like 2 days is weird enough as it is, but i'm talking like over a week, week and a half even. at least he's supportive and understands how stressed out i am during school. he witnessed it firsthand last year when he was helping me with my projects. but still. this summer was our summer, i saw him pretty much every day, somehow we're still not sick of each other - not even close - so that's a feat in its own right.
and fellowship of the ring is gonna have to wait. i've read over 200 pages over the course of a few days taking it with me on the bus and subway so i'm pretty happy with myself. i accomplished reading 2 books this summer, i wanted to do 3 but 2 is better than none.
all these fuck ups haven't drained my motivation yet so hopefully, hopefully, things will start looking up. after tomorrow night i'll feel much better. doing things any other way would just be shortchanging myself.
i think i'm actually getting sleepy.
peace out