Early...Late
Last night Dan Ainslie and I went to a Surrealist Club and played a card game called 1000 Blank Cards. There were moments where I laughed so genuinely that tears dripped out of my eyes. This happens when I am actually laughing with true enjoyment so to all of you comics out there...take note! Based on the humor, and the fact that Dan and I didn't get sexually assaulted, I'd say that this art party went fairly well. Neither one of us had met anyone from this gathering before, so when it came time to push the apartment buzzer we both resembled nervous little school girls.
My great friend Sairaa is in town. I still remember in the beginning of our friendship she told me that I had shown her what a true friend could be. To hear that made me feel so appreciated and it was really wonderful. I remember it was over icq the first time she really expressed how uniquely I had treated her and I wish for the life of me that I could pull up that old history and re-read it. Too bad it was saved onto an old computer. Lately I've been feeling really insecure and it would be nice to have some positive reinforcement. I haven't seen Sairaa yet since she got back from Toronto, but hopefully we can get together soon. Not only do we share a bond but I think that we both have a mutual respect which is what makes us staying so close possible even though we rarely see each other. We can go for months without so much as even one email, and yet I feel re-assured that when she gets back we'll be able to pick up right where we left off. I know that A LOT of the reasoning behind this is because I don't need a lot of maintenance to keep up a closeness with someone that I bond with. Providing they are the same way. Obviously when I become close friends with someone who is very high maintenance, the closeness won't last once we start seeing or communicating with each other less often. Our needs and feelings on the subject need to be mutually understood, or it just can't last. That's life, and it's pretty straight forward. Almost all friends eventually go through periods where they see each other less. Usually it's due to school, work, needing more solitude, traveling, moving, personal problems, or just having an active social life with lots of different people to see. I must stress that the reasons shouldn't be out of neglect and just totally taking the person for granted. Even though I have a few friendships where the other person needs more maintenance, I'm glad that I at least have some close friendships where we're on the same page.
My great friend Sairaa is in town. I still remember in the beginning of our friendship she told me that I had shown her what a true friend could be. To hear that made me feel so appreciated and it was really wonderful. I remember it was over icq the first time she really expressed how uniquely I had treated her and I wish for the life of me that I could pull up that old history and re-read it. Too bad it was saved onto an old computer. Lately I've been feeling really insecure and it would be nice to have some positive reinforcement. I haven't seen Sairaa yet since she got back from Toronto, but hopefully we can get together soon. Not only do we share a bond but I think that we both have a mutual respect which is what makes us staying so close possible even though we rarely see each other. We can go for months without so much as even one email, and yet I feel re-assured that when she gets back we'll be able to pick up right where we left off. I know that A LOT of the reasoning behind this is because I don't need a lot of maintenance to keep up a closeness with someone that I bond with. Providing they are the same way. Obviously when I become close friends with someone who is very high maintenance, the closeness won't last once we start seeing or communicating with each other less often. Our needs and feelings on the subject need to be mutually understood, or it just can't last. That's life, and it's pretty straight forward. Almost all friends eventually go through periods where they see each other less. Usually it's due to school, work, needing more solitude, traveling, moving, personal problems, or just having an active social life with lots of different people to see. I must stress that the reasons shouldn't be out of neglect and just totally taking the person for granted. Even though I have a few friendships where the other person needs more maintenance, I'm glad that I at least have some close friendships where we're on the same page.