alcohol
alcohol.. is funny. it is interesting to be the wasted one hearing stories about yourself the next day. It is sometimes even more interesting to be the sober one. Tonight I was happy I was sober...because i came to the realization that i deserve good lets. My tea fortune today said "let it come to you" quite profound..if i do say so myself. But zach was wasted like usual. saying how much he likes me and how we never hang out..kissing me on the cheek two or three times.....as i ran into him on my way home from the bar. Normally, if i would have had a few drinks in me... i would have stayed. I would have dropped everything i was doing-for a little of his attention. Granted, I do like his company.. but just listen to how desperate i sound. If i had been drinking i would have stuck around..hoping to....i dont even know what i am hoping for. perhaps that he will realize that he does enjoy hanging out wiht me/ like me and wants to hang out.. that never happens.. two pinky promises later.
as i was leaving.. he told me how much he loved me.. and i said thats a lie.. and he told me how i break his heart. which is probably also a lie... and then i told him that he has been breaking my heart for almost 4 yearrs now.. which is a sad and embarrassing truth.
aarons on the porch..i wonder if i can get a tuck in..
as i was leaving.. he told me how much he loved me.. and i said thats a lie.. and he told me how i break his heart. which is probably also a lie... and then i told him that he has been breaking my heart for almost 4 yearrs now.. which is a sad and embarrassing truth.
aarons on the porch..i wonder if i can get a tuck in..