eyes.
i can't make myself happy anymore.
its a startling realization I have come to recently. I am not to sure if its me or everyone else. I am trying. I promise..but it is just not working. I go out, get dressed up, grab coffee with friends, watch obnoxious mtv shows and americas next top model..i have been going to church, envoking the 2 beer limit, cooking dinner, volunteering more. none of it is working.
i need to find a new reason to be happy... and i am not getting any where close. im back in athens.. everything is supposed to be great.
I cant look people in the eyes anymore. I dont have the energy to fake it. and it seems like eye contact always gives me away.
i hate myself for being so miserable for no reason. im just so tired. and i keep telling myself it will get better...and its not. i mean its not getting worse. its just there.
right now. life is just kinda there. and i am existing. merely existing.
it is a good thing no one is trying to car and understand.because i wouldnt even know hwo to explain it.
its a startling realization I have come to recently. I am not to sure if its me or everyone else. I am trying. I promise..but it is just not working. I go out, get dressed up, grab coffee with friends, watch obnoxious mtv shows and americas next top model..i have been going to church, envoking the 2 beer limit, cooking dinner, volunteering more. none of it is working.
i need to find a new reason to be happy... and i am not getting any where close. im back in athens.. everything is supposed to be great.
I cant look people in the eyes anymore. I dont have the energy to fake it. and it seems like eye contact always gives me away.
i hate myself for being so miserable for no reason. im just so tired. and i keep telling myself it will get better...and its not. i mean its not getting worse. its just there.
right now. life is just kinda there. and i am existing. merely existing.
it is a good thing no one is trying to car and understand.because i wouldnt even know hwo to explain it.