bitching and moaning, skip this if you have a low tolerance for self-pity

[_windowlicker]

for some reason i knew that the letter would come today (apart from the fact that they told me it would be mid-December)

but i wasnt surprised by a thin envelope

they could have at least put some filler paper in there or something as a gesture of consolation

but i was upset for five seconds or so, and then i went upstairs and took a shower and tried to take a nap

i feel like i'm more bothered about not being able to live through all these plans that i've been envisioning for myself than about actually being snubbed. i'm also really dreading telling all these people who were forever telling me "oh i'm sure you'll get in" and talking about how great it will be to know someone at princeton, its a beautiful campus

so i'll just commit it to paper (or...computer) and hope that they get the message: randy, padraig, gerard, lizzie, jed, siobhan, ceilidh, buchanan, gallup, cox, gantt, camper, aaron, school friends and enemies, adele, the montreal contigent, everyone and his mother who asked about it

i'll call most of you, or you'll find out somehow

i mean it still might happen, but let's be realistic

though i do feel strangely lightened of a burden
no more hanging on the telephone or nervously approaching the mailbox
at least until march

bleh

fluffy clouds
I’m sad
Jumping rainbows
A soft and snuggly place

maybe oxford and the sorbonne will be acceptances