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So life just continues to go swimmingly.
Thursday i almost strangled a guy. but im not going to let him bother me. stupid evangelist with stupid perfect clone family. and before that i had a chemistry mock which i have undoubtably failed.
Friday morning i burst me tyre on the way to school. and i know they say that excercise in the morning is good for you but i really didn't feel like the workout. and i had black hands by the time i reached school, which actually wasn't that late, i was impressed with myself. had a physics mock which again i have undoubtably failed, BUT she doesn't expect me to pass, im not sure if that's better or worse.
Then went to kirsty's which was fun, watch good movies (well a good movie and chickflicks) and had a damn good bitch session which i haven't had in ages. Caused Kirsty to go into a weird fit after which she had to have a drink. it was really frightening. but fun.
Saturday came home, bought a wing mirror and i new tyre (another £100 bites the dust). did bugger all all afternoon which was fun but not entirely helpful. can almost play WildWorld now though. Revision does wonders for my guitar ability.
Sunday (today) wokeup rolled over and went to sleep again. then did get up. did some chemisty today but not enough. I just made me realise how much i don't know. Seriously if i bearly know half of my chemistry, and even that half is a struggle when it's meant to be second nature by now, how am i mean to know all of 3 more subjects as well. And even more than that if just my Alevels cause this much trauma how the fuck am i meant to cope with a career in which i have an exam everytime a new treatment come out, which is on average every year or so!! and on top of that i can't keep my head on my books long enough to actually learn anything. tehn my parents came home from their walk and i shouted at them. personally i think i was justified. My dad came in and sat on my guitar. well actually it was balanced on the sofa and he sat of the other end and rested his feet on teh neck. so i shouted at him not to break mmy guitar (which is like my child) and my mum said if i cleaned up after myself my dad wouldn't sit on my stuff and i called my dad inept at everything if he couldn't move a guitar off a chair. and then there was silence. no one calls my daddy inept. and my mum just said "revision not going well" and i burst into tears. then i rambled, much like i am right now. and threw my chemistry papers (which are mostly Ds) at my mum. that is when i stopped doing my work and decided maybe i ought to rest and sleep or something. plus my back really aches. now of course the crimson lady has reared her ugly head and the slightly spastic behaviour makes more sense but the understanding doesnt disapate the need to cry. i was just watching tv and the new childline advert made me burst into tears. and the ending of greys anatomy (poor izzy). at any rate my hormones are a bit haywire ooo prison break tomorrow!!
anyway i'd stear clear of me if i look at all stoney faced or even vaguely irritated, unless you want to:
a)get punched
b) get cried at
or c) both at the same time
so i love you all, if i'm not in on monday either i have killed myself or the chemistry has.
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Thursday i almost strangled a guy. but im not going to let him bother me. stupid evangelist with stupid perfect clone family. and before that i had a chemistry mock which i have undoubtably failed.
Friday morning i burst me tyre on the way to school. and i know they say that excercise in the morning is good for you but i really didn't feel like the workout. and i had black hands by the time i reached school, which actually wasn't that late, i was impressed with myself. had a physics mock which again i have undoubtably failed, BUT she doesn't expect me to pass, im not sure if that's better or worse.
Then went to kirsty's which was fun, watch good movies (well a good movie and chickflicks) and had a damn good bitch session which i haven't had in ages. Caused Kirsty to go into a weird fit after which she had to have a drink. it was really frightening. but fun.
Saturday came home, bought a wing mirror and i new tyre (another £100 bites the dust). did bugger all all afternoon which was fun but not entirely helpful. can almost play WildWorld now though. Revision does wonders for my guitar ability.
Sunday (today) wokeup rolled over and went to sleep again. then did get up. did some chemisty today but not enough. I just made me realise how much i don't know. Seriously if i bearly know half of my chemistry, and even that half is a struggle when it's meant to be second nature by now, how am i mean to know all of 3 more subjects as well. And even more than that if just my Alevels cause this much trauma how the fuck am i meant to cope with a career in which i have an exam everytime a new treatment come out, which is on average every year or so!! and on top of that i can't keep my head on my books long enough to actually learn anything. tehn my parents came home from their walk and i shouted at them. personally i think i was justified. My dad came in and sat on my guitar. well actually it was balanced on the sofa and he sat of the other end and rested his feet on teh neck. so i shouted at him not to break mmy guitar (which is like my child) and my mum said if i cleaned up after myself my dad wouldn't sit on my stuff and i called my dad inept at everything if he couldn't move a guitar off a chair. and then there was silence. no one calls my daddy inept. and my mum just said "revision not going well" and i burst into tears. then i rambled, much like i am right now. and threw my chemistry papers (which are mostly Ds) at my mum. that is when i stopped doing my work and decided maybe i ought to rest and sleep or something. plus my back really aches. now of course the crimson lady has reared her ugly head and the slightly spastic behaviour makes more sense but the understanding doesnt disapate the need to cry. i was just watching tv and the new childline advert made me burst into tears. and the ending of greys anatomy (poor izzy). at any rate my hormones are a bit haywire ooo prison break tomorrow!!
anyway i'd stear clear of me if i look at all stoney faced or even vaguely irritated, unless you want to:
a)get punched
b) get cried at
or c) both at the same time
so i love you all, if i'm not in on monday either i have killed myself or the chemistry has.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx