It's Over...
I don't understand Dommie. You say you love me, but you say you can't commit to be. That you are curious. I know you have only been with a few men completely, that most of your experience sexually is oral, but I thought we were in love! Soul mates you said...
It hurts so fucking bad to know you want to be with other men. That some one else will touch you, will please you, will touch my Dommie! Yes, MINE! I felt that connection Dom, did you not!? How did you miss it?
The laughter Dom, can you just forget the laughter? The closeness, the sex! Maybe you think there is better out there since you have so little to compare it too. How many men will it take to prove to you what we had was real?
I suppose I understand the being curious part, I mean I have been sexually active for over 5 years, so I know what is out there I guess. But I was with Paul for over a year. The connection weI had was like ours, don't you understand? I lost him by my own hand. But with you, I did nothing wrong but love you. And I do Dommie, I feel it with my entire body and mind. Why can I not make you feel it Dommie?
I had Hugh put away, and quite possibly have caused him to go over the deep end because of my love for you, now I will have to pay for that. I will have to spend God knows how long trailing Hugh to make sure he does not hurt you again. That he does not hurt anyoe else. I'm not one to wish death for some one or for myself, but...
I want to try to stay away from you now Dom, try to put this out of my mind, maybe lose myself in someone else or a few some one elses, but all I can think of is you. I hope you find what you are looking for soon. I hope and pray it is me Dommie, but I will not wait forever, I won't live through it. Everytime I see you I will die a little. Everytime I see you with another, my heart will grow colder.
I love you Dommie, but you pushed me away, you want to play. Your playground, unfortunately, will be my deathbed...
It hurts so fucking bad to know you want to be with other men. That some one else will touch you, will please you, will touch my Dommie! Yes, MINE! I felt that connection Dom, did you not!? How did you miss it?
The laughter Dom, can you just forget the laughter? The closeness, the sex! Maybe you think there is better out there since you have so little to compare it too. How many men will it take to prove to you what we had was real?
I suppose I understand the being curious part, I mean I have been sexually active for over 5 years, so I know what is out there I guess. But I was with Paul for over a year. The connection weI had was like ours, don't you understand? I lost him by my own hand. But with you, I did nothing wrong but love you. And I do Dommie, I feel it with my entire body and mind. Why can I not make you feel it Dommie?
I had Hugh put away, and quite possibly have caused him to go over the deep end because of my love for you, now I will have to pay for that. I will have to spend God knows how long trailing Hugh to make sure he does not hurt you again. That he does not hurt anyoe else. I'm not one to wish death for some one or for myself, but...
I want to try to stay away from you now Dom, try to put this out of my mind, maybe lose myself in someone else or a few some one elses, but all I can think of is you. I hope you find what you are looking for soon. I hope and pray it is me Dommie, but I will not wait forever, I won't live through it. Everytime I see you I will die a little. Everytime I see you with another, my heart will grow colder.
I love you Dommie, but you pushed me away, you want to play. Your playground, unfortunately, will be my deathbed...